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    <updated>2010-06-16T03:32:18Z</updated>
    <subtitle>last will and testament of an aging black american male (should i say it..homo) lost in the wasteland without the aid and assistance of what (who) should have been his family.. musical experiences
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    <title>Hello, My Name is iDLg</title>
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    <published>2010-06-11T18:50:06Z</published>
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    <summary><![CDATA[Hat &amp; Gloves&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp; Yes, I leave the house every day with my hat and gloves; i realized how 'old school' that sounded esp., thinking of women from back in the day with regards to proper street attire.&nbsp; These days,...]]></summary>
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        <![CDATA[<h1>Hat &amp; Gloves</h1><p>&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp; Yes, I leave the house every day with my hat and gloves; i realized how 'old school' that sounded esp., thinking of women from back in the day with regards to proper street attire.&nbsp; These days, i'm talking about my ball cap and bike gloves; &nbsp; Of course i've been buying a lot of my hats off of <a href="http://www.undergroundhiphop.com/store/listing2.asp?DateAddedQ1=&amp;DateAddedQ2=&amp;Format=CLO&amp;PageType=Listing&amp;ViewType=Row&amp;ShowOnly=&amp;Category=Clothing%3AHats%3AFitted%3ABaseball&amp;Label=&amp;Sort=&amp;InStock=Yes&amp;Color=&amp;Size=&amp;Page=&amp;PageLetter=&amp;ResultsPerPage=48" target="_blank">Ughh.com</a>, which has some nice selections, if not enough sizes. today it is a brown hat,</p><p><img height="200" width="200" border="7" src="http://idlg.net/HTHANTI017HT.jpg" alt="HATCH Anti-design" title="HATCH Anti-design" />&nbsp; Nice ani't it.&nbsp; I like it but my sticker is more in the center of the bill instead of off to the side, which i should copy or remove;</p><p>it is friday and i'm not feeling up to my basic duties today; hopefully my rent check will clear and the most i need to worry about is eating for the rest of the month; that reminds me i should do a couple of things.. </p><p>yeah, i'm tripping on money, and how much i would like to have extra; so i was looking at my funds trying to figure out where i could shave a little off; barely got the rent in bank so i would do well to add a few coins to that accounting; which means, <a target="_blank" href="http://www.acecashexpress.com/">borrowing</a> from peter to cover paul.</p><img height="102" width="150" border="0" align="left" src="http://idlg.net/acelogo.gif" /><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;the max of course is $255.00 bucks, which will just about cover a bit of verizon and pg&amp;e and maybe leave me some change..like at the most 50 bucks if that; whatever;</p><p>I am holding out doing it cause i wanted to be free and clear this kind of debt; but here i am again considering the options</p><p>.</p><p>&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp; so,&nbsp;</p><p>on the art front, I've been doing a bit of drawing;&nbsp;<a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/idlg/" target="_blank"><img height="210" width="258" border="7" align="right" src="http://idlg.net/Curt_J_1.jpg" /></a> <br /></p><p>&nbsp;like the small sketch of Curt J.&nbsp; whom can be found on flickr.com, as one of <br /></p><h3 class="contextTitleOpen"><a target="_blank" href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/hereinvannuys/">Here in Van Nuys'</a></h3><p class="contextTitleOpen"> models, Andy takes such great picture and his pictures of Curt are outstanding.</p><p>i've been a bit caught up with drawing some boys i found on <a target="_blank" href="http://www.amazonaboy.com/">amazona.com,</a></p><h3 class="contextTitleOpen"> </h3><p class="contextTitleOpen">which is an adult site; but the photography can be tasteful and often rather well done, almost arty.&nbsp; Come to think of it I haven't heard from my&nbsp;</p><p class="contextTitleOpen"><img height="350" width="200" border="4" align="left" src="http://idlg.net/designed.jpg" />penpal in quite a while;&nbsp; I hope he has not gotten himself into another jam; I was kinda stern with him about asking me for money; which i don't like to send; but i did for him just this once; now he's absent, hmmmmmmmmmmmmm..&nbsp; I'm really rather hungry right now and wished i'd fried that chicken this morning..cause i would have had some lunch today; oh, well, gonna be a hard nite and long ride home tonight.</p><h2 class="contextTitleOpen">&nbsp;I owe my mother a return call:</h2><p class="contextTitleOpen">yeah, she did&nbsp; call me a few days back and i've been meaning to get back in touch; she sounded happy, or at least well rested; i hope all is well on the home front;&nbsp;</p><p class="contextTitleOpen">&nbsp;O.K., now i'm revisiting the problem, since the bid for ace payday advance just failed through cause now the rules have changed and my old addressed check will not work, according to the clerk i ran into this morning; i just checked my bank account and though i don't see the rent check as having come through, i'm short a bit of money for it to clear at least 40 to 50 bones; of course i'm still short the verizon and pg&amp;e as well, so my shit is up the creek right now..and me i'm frozen in limbo don't know what to deal with .. afraid to spend a dime in any direction now that netflix and already come through; </p><p class="contextTitleOpen">so, i sent in a <a href="http://hrsimplified.com/" target="_blank">reimbursement</a> request for $55.00 bones, which should off set my account enough to cover the check assuming they don't try to cash it between now and say thursday which will take my transit tax shelter account that long to process and deposit the said monies; this would leave me about 4.00 bones after all is settled and still the verizon and pg&amp;e are outstanding..what's a boi to do;&nbsp;</p><p class="contextTitleOpen">my <a href="http://cocostore.com/home.php" target="_blank">porn</a> whould be in my mail box when i get home tonight, depending on how it was packaged,&nbsp;</p><p class="contextTitleOpen">tracking had this to say:</p><table width="650" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="0" border="0" summary="This table formats the detailed results."><tbody><tr><td valign="top"><img height="10" width="6" border="0" alt="Bullet" src="http://trkcnfrm1.smi.usps.com/PTSInternetWeb/images/bullet_circle.gif" /></td> 		                <td valign="top" class="mainTextbold">Delivered, June  14, 2010, 2:36 pm, EMERYVILLE, CA 94608</td> 		            </tr> 				 					<tr> 		            	<td valign="top"><img height="10" width="6" border="0" alt="Bullet" src="http://trkcnfrm1.smi.usps.com/PTSInternetWeb/images/bullet_circle.gif" /></td> 		                <td valign="top" class="mainTextbold">Out for Delivery  or Available at PO Box, June 14, 2010, 9:22 am, EMERYVILLE, CA 94608</td> 		            </tr> 				 					<tr> 		            	<td valign="top"><img height="10" width="6" border="0" alt="Bullet" src="http://trkcnfrm1.smi.usps.com/PTSInternetWeb/images/bullet_circle.gif" /></td> 		                <td valign="top" class="mainTextbold">Sorting  Complete, June 14, 2010, 8:52 am, EMERYVILLE, CA 94608</td> 		            </tr> 				 					<tr> 		            	<td valign="top"><img height="10" width="6" border="0" alt="Bullet" src="http://trkcnfrm1.smi.usps.com/PTSInternetWeb/images/bullet_circle.gif" /></td> 		                <td valign="top" class="mainTextbold">Arrival at Post  Office, June 14, 2010, 5:05 am, EMERYVILLE, CA 94608</td> 		            </tr> 				 					<tr> 		            	<td valign="top"><img height="10" width="6" border="0" alt="Bullet" src="http://trkcnfrm1.smi.usps.com/PTSInternetWeb/images/bullet_circle.gif" /></td> 		                <td valign="top" class="mainTextbold">Processed  through Sort Facility, June 13, 2010, 12:24 am, OAKLAND, CA 94615</td> 		            </tr> 				 					<tr> 		            	<td valign="top"><img height="10" width="6" border="0" alt="Bullet" src="http://trkcnfrm1.smi.usps.com/PTSInternetWeb/images/bullet_circle.gif" /></td> 		                <td valign="top" class="mainTextbold">Processed  through Sort Facility, June 11, 2010, 8:31 pm, OPA LOCKA, FL 33054</td> 		            </tr> 				 					<tr> 		            	<td valign="top"><img height="10" width="6" border="0" alt="Bullet" src="http://trkcnfrm1.smi.usps.com/PTSInternetWeb/images/bullet_circle.gif" /></td> 		                <td valign="top" class="mainTextbold">Electronic  Shipping Info Received, June 11, 2010</td></tr></tbody></table><p class="contextTitleOpen">so i can only assume; maybe my neighbor took the package and placed it on my door, cann't say until i get home.. <img height="307" width="224" border="6" src="http://idlg.net/violeteyes2.jpg" />&nbsp; A LITTLE CLOSE UP of a rather old painting; just love the expression so much..though the work is rather crude and colored rather dirty or muddy in affect..i still enjoy this work, but probably for different reasons than at first.</p><h3 class="contextTitleOpen">&nbsp;Treading Water; drowning in mediocrity and uselessness;</h3><p class="contextTitleOpen">&nbsp; well,&nbsp; I managed to receive my videos, i managed to file for the small claim on my pretax account; i haven't looked at my bank account to see what has gone down there__essentially i am holding my breath; I've come to realize, slowly, I'm running out of or out of certain items that i deem essential to my well being; like, soap, coffee, fruits&amp;vegetables,&nbsp; cigarettes, weed, lotion, </p><p class="contextTitleOpen">&nbsp; &nbsp; in spite of it all my mind has been going the way of men in the summer heat; so far the heat is none too high, but the men seem to be everywhere; and a lot of it seems aimless, appearance for the sake of seeming constructive yet you can tell they are up to nothing..too much free time.</p><p class="contextTitleOpen"><img height="229" width="186" border="7" align="left" src="http://idlg.net/oldDog.jpg" />&nbsp;</p><h3 class="contextTitleOpen">&nbsp;but i am watching them none the less, </h3><p class="contextTitleOpen">&nbsp;i suspect i do have a type; though i am subject to notice 'non typical' as well; what is my <a title="The Living World" target="_blank" href="http://www.archive.org/stream/livingworldconta02arno#page/364/mode/2up/search/race">type</a>? </p><ul><li>&nbsp; <span><span style="cursor: default; background-color: transparent">black or a</span>  <span style="cursor: default; background-color: transparent">shade</span>  <span style="cursor: default; background-color: transparent">of</span>  <span style="cursor: default; background-color: transparent">brown</span>  <span style="cursor: default; background-color: transparent">tinged</span>  <span style="cursor: default; background-color: transparent">with</span>  <span style="cursor: default; background-color: transparent">yellow</span></span></li><li><span><span style="cursor: default; background-color: transparent">&nbsp;&nbsp; the hair black, straight or woolly soft, thick &amp;&nbsp; curled</span></span></li><li><span><span style="cursor: default; background-color: transparent">&nbsp; forehead projecting and or convex &amp; arched; nose thick, wide &amp; mouth large</span></span></li><li><span><span style="cursor: default; background-color: transparent">&nbsp; cheek bones projecting</span></span></li><li><span><span style="cursor: default; background-color: transparent">&nbsp; well endowed but not like a horse<br /></span></span></li><li><span><span style="cursor: default; background-color: transparent">youthful but not restricted to age</span></span></li><li><span><span style="cursor: default; background-color: transparent">skinny but body definition</span></span></li><li><span><span style="cursor: default; 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got them on sale in fact; the material is said to be water proof so i spend a little time cleaning them up and/or keeping them clean; nothing like white sneakers..<br /><br />&nbsp; Yeah, i'm wondering what's up wit my pen pa Ryan M. seems he's busy, and hasn't had the time to send me a few words; </p><p>i hope he is o.k., being in prison <br /></p><p class="contextTitleOpen"> </p>]]>
        
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    <title>Somewhere along the lines...</title>
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    <published>2010-05-27T00:13:15Z</published>
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font-family: &quot;Calibri&quot;,&quot;sans-serif&quot;; color: rgb(31, 73, 125)">but I like to keep my professional life strickley professional.&nbsp; ..&quot;</span></h3><p>&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp; And like most str8 guys, I too have to let some go by the way side; I may think I'm 'all that and a bag of chips too' but I can accept other men (str8 and/or queer) may not find me of the least interesting.&nbsp; I'm not sure what kind of 'professional' thing he has going on sitting in the lobby of a building listening to an Ipod on the daily at exactly the same time, but I can respect his desire to seem so.&nbsp; As my life is My Adventure, so too is his life his without me (other than as a 'fixture' of the lobby that he frequents [and/or use to frequent].)&nbsp; I'm glad I made the effort to speak to him cause now I fully know whether he is available to me as at least a new friend.&nbsp; In some ways, I'm not bothered that his avoidance has meant he no longer frequents the lobby of the building for one cause I simply wouldn't want such unavailable eye candy around and secondly cause I think the avoidance forces him to change up what I perceived as a rather sad routine (esp., if he is not doing it (the routine of the same place/same time same thing behavior) to provide the opportunity to expand his social network) </p><p>&nbsp;</p><p><img height="444" width="546" border="9" align="middle" src="http://idlg.net/4558081607_d272de39ce_o.jpg" alt="La Santa Muerte is a boi" title="La Santa Muerte is a boi" /><br /></p><p>&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp; <br /></p><p>&nbsp;</p>]]>
        
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    <title>pineapple, pie, milk and water</title>
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    <published>2009-12-07T19:54:20Z</published>
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    <summary><![CDATA[academic geeks &amp; mondays (always get me down);&nbsp; &nbsp;I continue to long:&nbsp;for what exactly, seems to be ever changing; mostly items of or specific to netbooks, bikes, books, and music; then comes drugs and sex neither of which actually gets...]]></summary>
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        <![CDATA[<h1>academic geeks &amp; mondays (always get me down);</h1><p align="center">&nbsp; <br /></p><h2>&nbsp;I continue to long:</h2><p>&nbsp;for what exactly, seems to be ever changing; mostly items of or specific to netbooks, bikes, books, and music; then comes drugs and sex neither of which actually gets my full attention; i.e., i only smoke a limited amount of pot and my sex life is cuming in my hand. </p><p><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/42427506@N00/4166415180/in/photostream/" target="_blank"><img height="637" width="345" border="7" src="http://idlg.net/davidExposed.jpg" alt="David Exposed " title="David Exposed " /></a></p><div><p class="talk">&nbsp;<img height="363" width="250" border="7" align="right" src="http://idlg.net/smoke3.jpg" alt="Smoke" title="Smoke" /><br /></p></div><br /><div><u class="myId">M</u></div><br /><div><p class="talk"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/idlg/3857858435/" target="_blank">http://www.flickr.com/photos/idlg/3857858435/</a></p></div><div><p class="talk">but i think i have another</p></div><div><p class="talk"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/idlg/3858647626/in/photostream/" target="_blank">http://www.flickr.com/photos/idlg/3858647626/in/photostream/</a> </p></div><div><br /><h4 class="talk">I think I'm flirting with him; but he may just see me as being friendly;</h4><p class="talk">&nbsp;He is part of the catering staff for an event going on in the library; i've seen him before, and we always smile at each other; i think he is sexy as hell, cann't tell for sure if he is Filipino or Chinese, in either case, he's hot.&nbsp; Seems like he might be at least in his early 30's not sure about that either.&nbsp; I plan to go to this event, at first to eat..but now i want to chat this cat up; i tried to chat him up just now at the elelavator but he didn't really feel my drift or he was thinking about work, for sure, i can understand; i mean he is catering; </p><p class="talk">&nbsp;So, I want to the little affair, and yeah, the food was good, but Ray (i think that was what he said is his name) was better; i could watch him move around the room all night, esp., in them black slacks that didn't cling to his body, but definitely showed off his ass; He has a clown like smile and sunny like disposition but that may all be work related; seems like i could see gray hair on that head so again i know he's not some young pup. <br /></p><p class="talk">&nbsp;<img height="500" width="365" border="7" align="absmiddle" title="dream detail" alt="dream detail" src="http://idlg.net/blog/images/detail.jpg" /> thinking too hard about this matter won't be good for me; this image above is part of a larger painting i gave to my man Joesph; if u look real hard you can see two tongues tip to tip; right now it expresses my unrequited desire, if desire can be such a thing.. </p><h1 class="talk">been so long, i've forgotten how;</h1><p class="talk">&nbsp; Why i'm almost exclusively attracted to the working joe type of guy must say something about me as a guy; Since my dad was basically a working joe (for the army) i may be after what I believe my dad embodied. Do i think such a man can be trusted or is more likely a 'real' man; Do i think that&nbsp; labor imbues a quality of male unlike the office worker or politican; Now my minds all a flutter with just the idea that he could even possibly be attracted to me , i get too caught up and this is like a sugar rush, great going up, horrible coming down.<br /></p></div><p>&nbsp;</p>]]>
        <![CDATA[<h1>What makes a man attractive (2 me);</h1><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; i suppose a combination of things, all of which start with a disposition, esp., one that is smiling and friendly;&nbsp; Secondly in the arena of physical qualities, i think both a rugged masculine with some soft edges; then i think of color; i am drawn to men who are fairly golden brown to black; I am also attracted to body hair, both on the face and hopefully the low part of his body, as in legs and ass;</p><p><img height="507" width="350" border="7" title="heart Stop" alt="heart Stop" src="http://idlg.net/heartStop.jpg" /> i suppose his walk and the physical manner in which he carries himself; a man who walks with the full knowledge that his body is an object of observation and he almost encourages such observation.&nbsp; <img height="424" width="374" border="7" align="right" title="Golden" alt="Golden" src="http://idlg.net/golden.jpg" /><br /></p>]]>
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    <title>Catching up</title>
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    <published>2009-12-01T19:43:18Z</published>
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        <![CDATA[<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>  <w:WordDocument>   <w:View>Normal</w:View>   <w:Zoom>0</w:Zoom>   <w:PunctuationKerning/>   <w:ValidateAgainstSchemas/>   <w:SaveIfXMLInvalid>false</w:SaveIfXMLInvalid>   <w:IgnoreMixedContent>false</w:IgnoreMixedContent>   <w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText>false</w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText>   <w:Compatibility>    <w:BreakWrappedTables/>    <w:SnapToGridInCell/>    <w:WrapTextWithPunct/>    <w:UseAsianBreakRules/>    <w:DontGrowAutofit/>   </w:Compatibility>   <w:BrowserLevel>MicrosoftInternetExplorer4</w:BrowserLevel>  </w:WordDocument> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>  <w:LatentStyles DefLockedState="false" LatentStyleCount="156">  </w:LatentStyles> </xml><![endif]--> <!--[if gte mso 10]> <style>  /* Style Definitions */  table.MsoNormalTable 	{mso-style-name:"Table Normal"; 	mso-tstyle-rowband-size:0; 	mso-tstyle-colband-size:0; 	mso-style-noshow:yes; 	mso-style-parent:""; 	mso-padding-alt:0in 5.4pt 0in 5.4pt; 	mso-para-margin:0in; 	mso-para-margin-bottom:.0001pt; 	mso-pagination:widow-orphan; 	font-size:10.0pt; 	font-family:"Times New Roman"; 	mso-ansi-language:#0400; 	mso-fareast-language:#0400; 	mso-bidi-language:#0400;} </style> <![endif]-->  <h1 style="margin-right: -1in; text-indent: 0.5in"><span style="font-family: Stencil">New year around the bend;</span></h1>  <p align="center" style="text-align: center">I'm not anxious but then again i'm not chill either; new years always seem to catch me basically out of sorts, i.e., broke, and alone with little motivation;&nbsp; I use to travel around this time of the year, esp., cause flights are cheaper in the winter but that seems like years ago when i had that kind of disposable cash;&nbsp; Use to mean something to me to at least visit the family, whereas now, i feel like why don't they ever think of visiting me?</p>  <p align="center" style="text-align: center"><a href="http://twitter.com/iDLg2009">http://twitter.com/iDLg2009</a></p>  <span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;">yup, that is where you will find me these days, way too much time spent flipping through all the irrelevant post one finds there but like T.V., i'm hooked on knowing useless information</span><p align="center">&nbsp; </p><p align="center"><img border="0" align="left" title="Sugar Cain's dream boi" alt="Sugar Cain's dream boi" src="http://www.flickr.com/photos/42427506@N00/4124038108/" /><img height="485" width="521" border="4" align="left" src="http://idlg.net/David.jpg" /></p><h2 align="center" style="text-align: center"><span style="font-family: Stencil">He is </span></h2><h2 align="center" style="text-align: center"><span style="font-family: Stencil">also the embodiment of my (physical) type of man;&nbsp; go figure huh?</span></h2><p align="center">&nbsp;</p><p><br /><!--[if gte mso 10]> <style>  /* Style Definitions */  table.MsoNormalTable 	{mso-style-name:"Table Normal"; 	mso-tstyle-rowband-size:0; 	mso-tstyle-colband-size:0; 	mso-style-noshow:yes; 	mso-style-parent:""; 	mso-padding-alt:0in 5.4pt 0in 5.4pt; 	mso-para-margin:0in; 	mso-para-margin-bottom:.0001pt; 	mso-pagination:widow-orphan; 	font-size:10.0pt; 	font-family:"Times New Roman"; 	mso-ansi-language:#0400; 	mso-fareast-language:#0400; 	mso-bidi-language:#0400;} </style> <![endif]-->  </p><h2 align="center" style="text-align: center"><span style="font-family: Stencil"><br /></span></h2>  <div style="border: 6pt solid windowtext; padding: 1pt 4pt">  <p align="right" style="border: medium none ; padding: 0in; text-align: right">I asked my brother Adrian how much for a print of the above image and his reply &quot; ..Hi&nbsp; My prints are 11x14 on archival paper limited edition<br /> usually 5. Price is $300.00 .&quot;&nbsp; a little steep for my budget right now, which has been the case for a lot of other artist work i wished to purchase; </p>  <p align="right" style="border: medium none ; padding: 0in; text-align: right">I am the type of guy who falls in love at first sight; somehow, when i see him i know him deeply, trust me i don't see him that often; and having been on a rather bleak dry spell (as regarding love, not sex folks, even though that goes hand in hand for me;) i simply haven't seen (and not for looking, spying and peeking around) a guy until David who actually made my heart race; I wish for such but as my luck would have it, David lives in Barbados, and i of course live in California (in all reality David is probably straight too) So i really should settle for the print; i like both the photographic work and the model; I will have to put some change aside and save for this work though if i really truly want to purchase; perhaps i could break it in half or quarters like 4 payments of $75.00 to best work for me;&nbsp; I rarely save money for anything; truth be told, I rarely save money;<img height="549" width="469" border="4" align="right" src="http://idlg.net/David3.jpg" /><br /></p><p align="left">&nbsp;<span class="Heading3Char"><span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: Stencil">I'm going to take a smoke</span></span><span class="Heading3Char"><span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: Stencil"> break</span></span><span class="Heading3Char"><span style="font-size: 13.5pt">,</span></span></p><p align="center" style="text-align: center"><span class="Heading3Char"><span style="font-size: 13.5pt; font-family: Stencil">&nbsp;</span></span><span class="Heading3Char"><span style="font-size: 13.5pt" /></span></p>   <p align="center" style="border: medium none ; padding: 0in; text-align: center"><!--[if gte vml 1]><v:shapetype  id="_x0000_t75" coordsize="21600,21600" o:spt="75" o:preferrelative="t"  path="m@4@5l@4@11@9@11@9@5xe" filled="f" stroked="f">  <v:stroke joinstyle="miter"></a>  <v:formulas>   <v:f eqn="if lineDrawn pixelLineWidth 0"/>   <v:f eqn="sum @0 1 0"/>   <v:f eqn="sum 0 0 @1"/>   <v:f eqn="prod @2 1 2"/>   <v:f eqn="prod @3 21600 pixelWidth"/>   <v:f eqn="prod @3 21600 pixelHeight"/>   <v:f eqn="sum @0 0 1"/>   <v:f eqn="prod @6 1 2"/>   <v:f eqn="prod @7 21600 pixelWidth"/>   <v:f eqn="sum @8 21600 0"/>   <v:f eqn="prod @7 21600 pixelHeight"/>   <v:f eqn="sum @10 21600 0"/>  </v:formulas>  <v:path o:extrusionok="f" gradientshapeok="t" o:connecttype="rect"/>  <o:lock v:ext="edit" aspectratio="t"/> </v:shapetype><v:shape id="_x0000_i1025" type="#_x0000_t75" style='width:351.75pt; 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so another aid would be if i sent or posted the funds in an account (like say a paypal account for the photographer to wait (?) and see if i can fullfill in the next 4 months (12/09 thru 3/10) then he (you) would be able to release the image to me if i don't fullfill balance then i would simply let you know and close out account (that of course means you too cann't spend it untill the balance is covered). I know, I know, this is a lot of stuff to simply purchase some art but what's a poor boy to do; i mean come say Feb; that $225 may look good for some other personal emergency; with my life..that is not to hard to be true. Are you game for this? <br /><p align="left"> much respect<br /> btw, the 'ease' image is again nice work; best regards to David as well&quot;</p><p align="left">Maybe that will work out for the both of us.&nbsp; I hope he shares or at least pays his models, cause i would like to be of benifit to David as well.&nbsp; I know in Barbados $300.00 is like $600.00 so really that is a nice sum of change. </p><!--[if !mso]> <style> v\:* {behavior:url(#default#VML);} o\:* {behavior:url(#default#VML);} w\:* {behavior:url(#default#VML);} .shape {behavior:url(#default#VML);} </style> <![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>  <w:WordDocument>   <w:View>Normal</w:View>   <w:Zoom>0</w:Zoom>   <w:PunctuationKerning/>   <w:ValidateAgainstSchemas/>   <w:SaveIfXMLInvalid>false</w:SaveIfXMLInvalid>   <w:IgnoreMixedContent>false</w:IgnoreMixedContent>   <w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText>false</w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText>   <w:Compatibility>    <w:BreakWrappedTables/>    <w:SnapToGridInCell/>    <w:WrapTextWithPunct/>    <w:UseAsianBreakRules/>    <w:DontGrowAutofit/>   </w:Compatibility>   <w:BrowserLevel>MicrosoftInternetExplorer4</w:BrowserLevel>  </w:WordDocument> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>  <w:LatentStyles DefLockedState="false" LatentStyleCount="156">  </w:LatentStyles> </xml><![endif]--> <!--[if gte mso 10]> <style>  /* Style Definitions */  table.MsoNormalTable 	{mso-style-name:"Table Normal"; 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in that, i send him a list of music i am considering purchasing, and ask him to select what he would purchasse, then we review the artist and or material we have selected;&nbsp;</p>  <p align="center" class="post-titleentry-title" style="text-align: center">I would like to write music reviews, which i did promise here some time ago i would start doing; of course, with me, writing is such a labor and time consuming matter and time is the one item i don't seem to have much esp., with regards, to thoughtful content.</p>  <p align="center" class="post-titleentry-title" style="text-align: center">Holy Smokes by Dudley Perkins, is the album up for consideration; Now I have/had other music by Mr Perkins, first of which was the Madlib produced &quot;Lil Light&quot; which i had in LP version; (I have since regretted trading that album cause it contained that little gem&nbsp; &quot;Falling&quot;</p>  <p align="center" class="post-titleentry-title" style="text-align: center">Rain come down, rain come down<br /> rain come down, rain come down</p>  <p align="center" class="post-titleentry-title" style="text-align: center">I see unnecessary death, I see life just <br /> gone away<br /> I see souls out of control, I see the<br /> earth's pain, I feel the earth's pain<br /> I see the powers of manipulation and I<br /> pass away<br /> I see the sleep walkers who walks<br /> asleep doing it again</p>  <p align="center" class="post-titleentry-title" style="text-align: center">I watch how they do the music, I watch<br /> how they do the children<br /> I see wars, I see famine, I see<br /> pestilence<br /> I see disease, break, incest, racism, I<br /> see these things<br /> I seen what the lack of knowledge can<br /> do to a civilzation<br /> I've seen what laziness can do to a<br /> civilzation, lazy people<br /> when you don't stand up for your own</p>  <p align="center" class="post-titleentry-title" style="text-align: center">Go ahead and keep beating around the<br /> bush, beating around the bush&quot;<br /> I see with my own blue eyes also and<br /> take care for what I see<br /> believe me I've seen a lot, I participated<br /> in wars&quot;<br /> I've seen so many, so many things<br /> with the help of us could have been set <br /> right</p>  <p align="center" class="post-titleentry-title" style="text-align: center">Don't you wanna go to the moon also<br /> don't you wanna enhance your<br /> intelligence<br /> dont you wanna stand up for your own<br /> don't you wanna see with your own<br /> two eyes&quot;<br /> Only you can lift you up, by the will of<br /> God<br /> the powers that be, the energy within<br /> your soul</p>  <p align="center" class="post-titleentry-title" style="text-align: center">I hang on the edge of this universe, <br /> singing off key<br /> talking too loud and bracing myself to<br /> cushion the fall<br /> I shall tumble into deep space never in<br /> this former with this feeling<br /> to return to earth, it is not tragic</p>  <p align="center" class="post-titleentry-title" style="text-align: center">I shall spound to the black hole losing<br /> sacred limbs<br /> internal organs, severing my naked<br /> soul<br /> that in the next galaxy with only my<br /> essence embracing myself<br /> as I fall into the ill minded mode</p>  <p class="post-titleentry-title">&nbsp;<span>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>That is some brilliant writing; but when I was listening to this material on the LP I failed to grasp the pure poetry of his style;&nbsp; Oh, i caught a glimmer which is why he stays on my play list with this album and &quot;Expressions&quot; which i found a bit more accessible to my feeble mindedness; Yes, I am saying that Mr Perkins is brilliant--i sort of compare him to Miles Davis, in that he requires some learned listening to fully grasp and appreciate his delivery and content;&nbsp; speaking of delivery he reminds me of the Last Poets in both voice and style, but more abstract and intellectual overall; of equal parts political and ethnocentric; I will probably download from my EMusic.com account this album &quot;Holy Smokes&quot; if only on the merits of his previous work.&nbsp; In fact, I am probably bringing all his music back into my current playlist, esp., for headphone listening ; I grasp him better both stereophonic and literally via headphones than on my home speakers; some how his lyrical content is immediately intimate and discernable for me;&nbsp; Perhaps that&rsquo;s then nature of a true crooner, it&rsquo;s in your ear or not at all.</p>  </div>]]>
        
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    <title>schedule change</title>
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    <published>2009-07-15T22:45:36Z</published>
    <updated>2009-07-17T02:41:02Z</updated>
    
    <summary><![CDATA[week ending: 7/15/2009I appear reluctant to speak in this photo graph; I took it myself with my new&nbsp; cell phone..hero I LIKE IT WHEN YOU SMILE.... on TwitpicSo I have done a sketch of him and his late friend Dash...]]></summary>
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        <![CDATA[<h1>week ending:</h1><h1><img width="150" vspace="3" hspace="4" height="200" border="5" src="http://idlg.net/0709091944a.jpg" /> 7/15/2009</h1><p>I appear reluctant to speak in this photo graph; I took it myself with my new&nbsp; cell phone..</p><h2>hero <a target="_blank" href="http://twitpic.com/aicoj">I LIKE IT WHEN YOU SMILE.... on Twitpic<img width="300" vspace="5" hspace="4" height="250" border="7" src="http://idlg.net/17652403.jpg" /></a></h2><p>So I have done a sketch of him and his late friend Dash Snow; I liked the photograph that mr&nbsp; snow had taken and&nbsp; publicly displayed;  </p><p><img width="232" height="173" border="0" src="http://idlg.net/earsnot_dash2.jpg" /></p><h3>oh, I'm listening to:</h3><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <a href="http://www.forcedexposure.com/artists/wareika.hill.sounds.html" target="_blank">Wareika Hill Sounds</a></p><p>&nbsp;</p><h3>s ocial networks are going to kill me;</h3><p align="right">there is the assumption, both mine and i think society in general, that everyone is in need of some one or ones else at most times in their human life; otherwise, the anti social are either lacking in some good social graces or crazy as in likely to blow up a building;</p><p align="right">these are sad days with these assumptions; abet, we move on; seems when i was younger that is exactly what i did; I moved on physically for greater and/or other social outlets, experiences and relations; now a days, we simply change up on where we dump our stuff, i.e., we might drop <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/idlg/" target="_blank">flickr.com</a> and get more active on <a href="http://twitter.com/iDLg2009" target="_blank">twitter.com</a>, or we might drop both of these and blog, with say word press, </p><p align="right">i recently got going on the twitter thing, for 2 reason, one being <a href="http://twitter.com/KunleIRAK" target="_blank">earsnot</a>..a person of character..and secondly cause it was a feature of my new phone..so i thought why not..</p><p align="right"><img width="153" height="204" border="0" align="left" src="http://idlg.net/0716091914.jpg" />&nbsp;</p>]]>
        
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    <title>chaos</title>
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    <published>2009-05-26T21:48:46Z</published>
    <updated>2009-05-27T03:02:39Z</updated>
    
    <summary><![CDATA[&nbsp; last night, i sort'a had a date; too bad it was really only a sex hook-up; lean and sexy with a 'real' gift from his mom &amp; dad, if u know what i mean; anyhow, he waz' not one...]]></summary>
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Ricky professes to be a &quot;&quot;lil' devil,&quot;&quot; and Midnight wants to find out for himself. Midnight's typical NYC banjee-boy trade, backward b-ball cap and all - and that was fine with me. They strip to their skivvies (fans of baggy boxers will dig Midnight's pair) and Ricky starts worshipping Midnight's heavily-skinned cock. </span><img height="426" width="313" border="6" src="http://idlg.net/edwardo.jpg" /><span style="font-size: 8pt; font-family: Verdana">(Sorry, but I hafta mention another sloppy-sound moment: What I at first thought were kind of cool voiceovers from Ricky turned out to be off-camera direction from the videographer.) 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    <title>i need to get back to dancing..</title>
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    <published>2008-10-31T00:27:06Z</published>
    <updated>2008-10-31T00:33:36Z</updated>
    
    <summary><![CDATA[he made me so happy with this video; made me miss dancing and re stimulated my desire to go dancing, esp., in the street for funsee or&nbsp; &nbsp; flickr &nbsp;...]]></summary>
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        <![CDATA[<p>he made me so happy with this video; </p><p>made me miss dancing and re stimulated my desire to go dancing, esp., in the street for fun</p><p><a href="&lt;object type=&quot;application/x-shockwave-flash&quot; width=&quot;400&quot; height=&quot;270&quot; data=&quot;http://www.flickr.com/apps/video/stewart.swf?v=61761&quot; classid=&quot;clsid:D27CDB6E-AE6D-11cf-96B8-444553540000&quot;&gt; &lt;param name=&quot;flashvars&quot; value=&quot;intl_lang=en-us&amp;amp;photo_secret=642138fe96&amp;amp;photo_id=2987079107&quot;&gt;&lt;/param&gt; &lt;param name=&quot;movie&quot; value=&quot;http://www.flickr.com/apps/video/stewart.swf?v=61761&quot;&gt;&lt;/param&gt; &lt;param name=&quot;bgcolor&quot; value=&quot;#000000&quot;&gt;&lt;/param&gt; &lt;param name=&quot;allowFullScreen&quot; value=&quot;true&quot;&gt;&lt;/param&gt;&lt;embed type=&quot;application/x-shockwave-flash&quot; src=&quot;http://www.flickr.com/apps/video/stewart.swf?v=61761&quot; bgcolor=&quot;#000000&quot; allowfullscreen=&quot;true&quot; flashvars=&quot;intl_lang=en-us&amp;amp;photo_secret=642138fe96&amp;amp;photo_id=2987079107&quot; height=&quot;270&quot; width=&quot;400&quot;&gt;&lt;/embed&gt;&lt;/object&gt;">see </a></p><p><a href="&lt;object type=&quot;application/x-shockwave-flash&quot; width=&quot;400&quot; height=&quot;270&quot; data=&quot;http://www.flickr.com/apps/video/stewart.swf?v=61761&quot; classid=&quot;clsid:D27CDB6E-AE6D-11cf-96B8-444553540000&quot;&gt; &lt;param name=&quot;flashvars&quot; value=&quot;intl_lang=en-us&amp;amp;photo_secret=642138fe96&amp;amp;photo_id=2987079107&quot;&gt;&lt;/param&gt; &lt;param name=&quot;movie&quot; value=&quot;http://www.flickr.com/apps/video/stewart.swf?v=61761&quot;&gt;&lt;/param&gt; &lt;param name=&quot;bgcolor&quot; value=&quot;#000000&quot;&gt;&lt;/param&gt; &lt;param name=&quot;allowFullScreen&quot; value=&quot;true&quot;&gt;&lt;/param&gt;&lt;embed type=&quot;application/x-shockwave-flash&quot; src=&quot;http://www.flickr.com/apps/video/stewart.swf?v=61761&quot; bgcolor=&quot;#000000&quot; allowfullscreen=&quot;true&quot; flashvars=&quot;intl_lang=en-us&amp;amp;photo_secret=642138fe96&amp;amp;photo_id=2987079107&quot; height=&quot;270&quot; width=&quot;400&quot;&gt;&lt;/embed&gt;&lt;/object&gt;">or&nbsp; </a>&nbsp;<a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/batudiste/2987079107/?addedcomment=1#comment72157608516546540"> flickr </a><br />&nbsp;</p>]]>
        
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    <title>Defining Self</title>
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    <id>tag:idlg.net,2008:/blog//1.62</id>
    
    <published>2008-10-28T18:33:59Z</published>
    <updated>2008-10-29T03:33:48Z</updated>
    
    <summary><![CDATA[What defines me?&nbsp; a queer life; drugs, sex and isolation; race, money and social standing?&nbsp; lately i taken to listening to homo hop radio, simply for the inspiration of voices like my own.Why i am only as personally constructive as...]]></summary>
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        <![CDATA[<h1>What defines me?</h1><p><img width="201" height="250" border="4" align="left" src="http://idlg.net/1052838278_a0f678032f_b.jpg" alt="thug shots (series)" title="thug shots (series)" />&nbsp; a queer life; drugs, sex and isolation; race, money and social standing?&nbsp; lately i taken to listening to <a title="radio link" target="_blank" href="http://s5.viastreaming.net:7770/listen.pls">homo hop radio</a>, simply for the inspiration of voices like my own.</p><p>Why i am only as personally constructive as i am at work vs home is another condition? I think i realize that i spend most of my days in and at a work enviorment thus i attempt to maximize that time creatively since i realize that my home time is mainly eat, cum and sleep..more or less in that order.</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; I'm not sure if this is a good life since i'm too busy essentialy running behind the creditors and other consumeristic life.&nbsp; I mean I do need things, like shoes, socks, records, books, art supplies, art itself..etc. etc., </p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; Is need a good word..perhaps i should say i want things, as is i am also working on more and more non physiclal consumption, by that, I think I am talking about the consumption of things that don't leave a physicla object in your pocession, like travel.</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; I've noticed that I only construst this blog at work though which was my original thought regarding the limits of my time.</p><p><img width="240" height="180" border="4" align="right" src="http://idlg.net/1402565829_7c14482734_b.jpg" alt="red" title="red" /><br />&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;  I was tripping the other day, on another artist site,</p><p>a black artist by the name of <a target="_blank" href="http://www.belasco-comix.com/">belasco</a>; we sort of met and knew each other for a minute, however, the gentleman is way famous for his art work unlike myself.&nbsp; And deserving? his fame is for him since his work is really incrediable and queer.&nbsp; I admire the pencil work he does of black guys a bit more than his character sketches; but there is no doubt his cartoons are erotic.&nbsp; I myself have actually jacked off to them on more than one occassion.</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; anyway, i pulled some links from his site that i should share as I found them to be really informative links..in an art to artist sence.</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  <a href="http://www.afriboy.com/" target="_blank" title="afriBoi">Africa Boy</a></p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  .....he says it is the site of a free boy from africa; his drawings are great, I only hoped to draw as many and as well the beauty of black men; the thing i liked most is the variedness of his models and styles, excellent work and a true inspiration for me; in fact, i went back into another site and pulled a bunch of <a href="http://bbwphoto.blogspot.com/" target="_blank" title="Black">pictures of black guy</a>s just to throw more blacks into my flickr.com site.</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; This effort didn't go too far since the site i used had a number of guys whom all seemed to be the same kind of guy; the 6 pack abs, the big arms, and tightly groomed hair; some after awhile didn't even look black if not for there skin color, since they all had the fairly straight nose, full mouths but not that large, and sharp chins.&nbsp; I was surprised to see so many black guys who all looked so similar.</p><p>&nbsp;I don't know why I don't draw more african male features; I suppose I'm way too snowed out in my life, and since being in san francisco these many years, I become way too polycultured in what i look at with regards to men; I mean, I do draw a awfull lot of asian, mexican, and or latin american men as well as dark europeans;</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; I suppose if i lived in africa, then blacknuss would be a bit more my primary focus?&nbsp; Or if I had been raised in predomanately black communities; but that is not the case for me; a product of amerika integration efforts since the 50's; seems i've always been around them other folks.</p><p>oh yeah, links...</p><p>speaking of non black specific art..but yes, still <a title="a collection of many artist by one person" target="_blank" href="http://www.delftboys.com/pre/fun/art/slides/artHB.html">male</a>..</p><p>&nbsp;I like the collection.&nbsp; It also inspired me with regards to my lines in pencil;<br /></p><p>&nbsp;</p><p><br />&nbsp;</p>]]>
        <![CDATA[<h1>Who have i become</h1><p><img width="275" height="500" border="4" align="right" title="black boi" alt="black boi" src="http://idlg.net/2980108239_3368c1b049.jpg" /> &nbsp;&nbsp;  on one hand, i think my art has definitely improved; I've changed from being timid about what I wish to convey and to just doing what ever i feel; my lines have more confidence; perhaps since i started doing more and more sketches in pen I have felt less concerned for exact lines, thus i've reached a sort of figurative freedom, meaning all lines are part of the process;</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; on the other hand, I also think my art has reached a certain limitation__meaning I feel the need to get outside of what I know and attempt&nbsp; some'tings that i've never tried; perhaps i have simply reached a point where I no longer feel the work is just a practice, i.e., I now need to explore larger work, i.e., canvas, and within that&nbsp; more of a narrative;</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; like my life; i am no longer satisfied with the small pen and pencil sketches but rather throw paint around, freely, carelessly, with abandon;</p><p>but i remain in tiny conventional apartments, and I am afraid of damaging the property with the layers of mess that will result__currently, my canvas work remains in a closet,&nbsp; and i've been way too cheap about affording stretcher&nbsp; bars and&nbsp; more canvas&nbsp; as well as&nbsp; more&nbsp; paint;&nbsp; I think I should be buying paint by&nbsp; the buckets&nbsp; instead of tiny little tubes; </p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; I have to break my own mold;<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />&nbsp;</p>]]>
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    <title>living in west oakland,  cali</title>
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    <published>2008-10-06T19:43:46Z</published>
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    <summary><![CDATA[&nbsp;iDLg back up__&nbsp;&nbsp;__________________________________________________my boi Elvis iDLg Oakland/SF artistfigurative portrait artmix mediums including but not limited to acrylic, oil pastels, pen and inkand marker;Past shows include:SFArtsOh So Little CafeGay &amp; Straight Alliance Art AuctionNational Queer Arts Festival 2002 - a small...]]></summary>
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        <![CDATA[<p><a target="_blank" href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/idlg/2916440809/in/photostream/"><img width="365" height="252" border="0" align="right" src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3034/2916440809_e3dc054978_o.jpg" alt="lil el" title="lil el" /></a></p><h1>&nbsp;iDLg back up__<br /></h1><pre>&nbsp;</pre><pre>&nbsp;__________________________________________________my boi Elvis <br /></pre> <pre>iDLg <br />Oakland/SF artist<br /><br />figurative portrait art<br />mix mediums including but not limited to acrylic, oil pastels, pen and ink<br />and marker;<br /><br />Past shows include:<br />SFArts<br />Oh So Little Cafe<br />Gay &amp; Straight Alliance Art Auction<br />National Queer Arts Festival 2002 -<br /><br /> a small show i just put up at CAFFE TERZETTO, (550D Gene Friend Way) in<br />Mission Bay of San Francisco, CA; consist of 5 portraits, (Kyp Malone, Ralph<br />B., Eliosmar, School Boi [Eddy], &amp;amp; Chinese Soldier )and a shopping cart<br />triptych (Chupacabra, 3D cart &amp;amp; Oakland Gold); <br />please stop by and enjoy a coffee and my work; I would sincerely appreciate<br />any critique or comments. <br />best wishes <img width="546" height="293" border="0" align="right" src="http://idlg.net/522655653_a295b112ce_o.jpg" /></pre><pre>&nbsp;</pre><pre>&nbsp;</pre><pre>&nbsp;</pre><pre>&nbsp;</pre><pre>&nbsp;</pre><pre>&nbsp;</pre><pre>&nbsp;</pre><pre>&nbsp;</pre><pre>&nbsp;</pre><pre>&nbsp;</pre><pre>&nbsp;--- On <strong>Sun, 10/5/08, Brent Kincaid <em>&lt;brentkincaid@hotmail.com&gt;</em></strong> wrote:<br /></pre><p align="left"><br />From: Brent Kincaid &lt;brentkincaid@hotmail.com&gt;<br />Subject: RE: encouraging support for art<br />To: idlg@sbcglobal.net<br />Date: Sunday, October 5, 2008, 1:01 PM<br /><br /><br /><br />The parinting is great, but I have no idea who you are. I can see WHAT<br />you are, but there is no name. Just that unreadable calligraphed<br />signature. Who are you and how did you know to contact me?<br />&nbsp;<br />And, thanks for sharing the wonderful artwork.<br />&nbsp;<br />Brent</p><p align="left"><br />Date: Mon, 6 Oct 2008 12:30:13 -0700<br />From: <span class="yshortcuts" style="border-bottom: 1px dashed rgb(0, 102, 204); cursor: pointer">idlg@sbcglobal.net</span><br />Subject: RE: encouraging support for art<br />To: <span class="yshortcuts" style="border-bottom: 1px dashed rgb(0, 102, 204); background: transparent none repeat scroll 0% 50%; cursor: pointer; -moz-background-clip: -moz-initial; -moz-background-origin: -moz-initial; -moz-background-inline-policy: -moz-initial">brentkincaid@hotmail.com</span><br /><br /><br />so sorry to disturb you; (i was gonna say some'ting<br />'smart' like_______goD gave me yo email address..cause his promotions<br />is on high) but the truth is i probably have it for one of two reason,<br />as some point we intersected and this (the email address) was given or<br />someone else (as in 9 degrees) intersected with you then to me and the<br />email address was given then..in either case the time and place may<br />have been light years ago, or maybe last week, i don't know; but for<br />future reference I can and will remove you from my promotional<br />listings..again, sorry to have disturbed you.<br />best regards,<br />ran-D (btw is my name, and Brent, i think we have met..) <br /><br />Hey, Ran-D,<br /><br />I bet you are right and we have met. But, please don't remove me from<br />your personal list and let's get more acquainted. While I am not<br />traveling and cannot come to showings (however much I like them) that<br />are not on this island (hell, I am having trouble getting to openings<br />on the other side of this small rock) I don't want to pass up a chance<br />to correspond with an artist who resonates on such a similar frequency<br />with mine.<br /><br />Take a look at my art (sorry about the site being so fucked up) at <a href="http://gayartshow.com/" target="_blank"><span class="yshortcuts">gayartshow.com</span></a>. That is my old site and needs repair. </p><p align="left">Then, go to <a href="http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Paintings2006/" target="_blank"><span class="yshortcuts">http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Paintings2006/</span></a>&nbsp;and see some of my later stuff. I have been busy doing woodburning (which is how I earn my pocket money now that I am on <span class="yshortcuts" style="border-bottom: 1px dashed rgb(0, 102, 204); background: transparent none repeat scroll 0% 50%; cursor: pointer; -moz-background-clip: -moz-initial; -moz-background-origin: -moz-initial; -moz-background-inline-policy: -moz-initial">Social Security</span>). When&nbsp;you look at your stuff and my stuff, you will see how much we approach <span class="yshortcuts" style="border-bottom: medium none; background: transparent none repeat scroll 0% 50%; cursor: pointer; -moz-background-clip: -moz-initial; -moz-background-origin: -moz-initial; -moz-background-inline-policy: -moz-initial">color and light</span> in such a similar way. <br /><br />So, stay well, keep artifying and let us be friends.<br /><br />B</p><div align="center"><pre><img width="211" height="340" border="5" align="left" src="http://idlg.net/2540977106_0a644d65d9.jpg" />Oh, my  gosh, i'm actually back; i sent AT&amp;T </pre><pre>a small e mail the other night cause I could not get into this site <br />And they resolved the matter before monday; wow, I don't believe it;</pre><pre>esp., since I'd had the problem for some time..<br /></pre><pre>Hello,<br /><br />Thank you for contacting Yahoo! Small Business Support.<br /><br />I understand that you are getting an error while trying to login to your<br />Blog.<br /><br />I do apologize for the inconvenience this may have caused you. As the <br />error which you have specified is related to the connectivity to the <br />database for your blog, we have repaired the databases. But as we do not<br />have your login information we are unable to test or replicate it. <br />Please try login again and let us know if the issue still persists.<br /><br />We believe this solution should resolve your issue. If the issue still <br />persists, in order for us to assist you with this matter in the most <br />efficient manner, please go to the following URL:<br /><br />&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<a href="http://smallbusiness.yahoo.com/contactus" target="_blank"><span class="yshortcuts">http://smallbusiness.yahoo.com/contactus</span></a><br /><br />After logging into the <span style="border-bottom: 1px dashed rgb(0, 102, 204); background: transparent none repeat scroll 0% 0%; cursor: pointer; -moz-background-clip: -moz-initial; -moz-background-origin: -moz-initial; -moz-background-inline-policy: -moz-initial" class="yshortcuts">Yahoo! ID</span> that is associated with your <span style="background: transparent none repeat scroll 0% 0%; cursor: pointer; -moz-background-clip: -moz-initial; -moz-background-origin: -moz-initial; -moz-background-inline-policy: -moz-initial" class="yshortcuts">Yahoo! <br />Small Business plan</span>, you will have access to our contact phone number as<br />well as the option to schedule a call back.<br /><br />Please do not hesitate to reply if you need further assistance.<br /><br />Regards,<br /><br /> Darshan<br /><br />Yahoo! Small Business Supp <br /></pre></div><pre>don't matter</pre><h4>I'm happy for the results of the little show I mentioned above;&nbsp;</h4><h4>cause I sold at least 3 of the works mentioned; not for too handsome of a price but enough for me to feel ok about the whole effort.</h4><h4>Of course now I need to start looking for another venture;&nbsp; </h4><h4><img width="500" height="363" border="4" align="right" title="pair" alt="pair" src="http://idlg.net/3555187489_5fe421f410_b.jpg" /></h4><h2>Now that i've got this page back and up;<strong> </strong></h2><p><strong>I'm never really sure what is important to tell strangers, and how do I assume if they want or need to know what I might have to say;</strong></p><p><a title="Radiohead" target="_blank" href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KVvO4mPoZiA"><img width="437" height="413" border="3" src="http://idlg.net/2538074733_26fbb4478c_o.jpg" /></a></p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>What i've been doing all day ( internet wise..ya know..) and all day cause I'm a captive audience; work phool,</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p><a title="Flavorwire" target="_blank" href="http://flavorwire.com/22401/viva-la-mix-8-donwload-from-david-byrne-phoenix-burial-and-sally-shapiro"><img width="363" hspace="4" height="500" border="4" align="middle" title="eudardo" alt="eudardo" src="http://idlg.net/edwardo.jpg" /></a> </p><p><a title="Flavorwire" target="_blank" href="http://flavorwire.com/22401/viva-la-mix-8-donwload-from-david-byrne-phoenix-burial-and-sally-shapiro">&nbsp;</a>Flavorwire, o.k., i like em', sometime the opinion is not my taste, and the reviews are subject to 'suspended disbelief' i'm kwel wit dat; so i read em, and often follow up on some of the links; Flavorpill and the Daily Dose bring you today's cultural news, events, and special member-only updates right to your inbox!</p><p><a title="Radiohead" target="_blank" href="http://www.radioheadremix.com/mixes.php?page=2"><img width="500" hspace="4" height="365" border="4" align="left" title="pair study" alt="pair study" src="http://idlg.net/foutain_of_youth.jpg" /></a></p><h4>u know i admire these peeps, RADIOHEAD, so much of their&nbsp; music is appropriate for my life, and or events of my life;</h4><h4>the emotional range of their material seems to have an eternal quality; i.e., to suggest the songs will be remembered long after their creators life..</h4><h4 align="justify">&quot; After the overwhelming response to the Nude Remix Project, Radiohead are giving you the opportunity to remix &quot;Reckoner&quot;, another track from the band's latest album &quot;In Rainbows&quot;.</h4>  <p>To make remixing easy, the separate 'stems'* from the song were available to purchase from several digital stores. The 'stems' available were bass, lead vocals, backing vocals, guitar, piano/strings and drums. All six stems were available to buy for the price of a single track. You can mix them in any way you like, either by adding your own beats and instrumentation, or just remixing the original parts.</p>  <p>Finished mixes can be uploaded <a href="http://www.radioheadremix.com/upload">_here_</a> where the public will listen and vote for their favourite remix (submissions end 13th November). You can also create a widget allowing votes from your own website, Facebook or MySpace page to be counted as 'mix votes' back on radioheadremix.com. Radiohead will listen to the best remixes.</p>  <p>*'stems' are the component parts of the song.</p>      <p>If you have any questions / need some help please <a href="http://www.radioheadremix.com/help">click here</a>.</p>  <p>For full terms and conditions, <a href="http://www.radioheadremix.com/terms">click here</a>. &quot;&nbsp; </p><p>&nbsp;</p><p><a href="http://www.semipermanent.com/" target="_blank" title="Semi Permanent"><img width="364" vspace="3" hspace="6" height="500" border="6" align="left" title="muscle boi" alt="muscle boi" src="http://idlg.net/harder.jpg" /></a></p><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4><img width="240" height="152" border="0" src="http://idlg.net/stats.gif" />&nbsp;</h4><h4><span class="style3">You're probably thinking one                     of two things right now. Either &ldquo;Who or what exactly is Semi-Permanent?&rdquo;                     or &ldquo;Oh, it&rsquo;s those Semi-Permanent guys, I&rsquo;ve heard of them.&rdquo;                     For the sake of this About section we are going to assume                     you are part of the former, mainly to cover our arse and to                     make sure you get a good understanding of what the event                     is, even if you have already heard of us.                                       </span>                   So, what is Semi-Permanent?                     To put it simply Semi-Permanent is a design event. It consists                     of a conference and side events which include exhibitions,                     competitions, workshops and parties. It&rsquo;s a week long celebration                     of all things design. 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    <title>Art__________Elvis________Living in general</title>
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    <summary><![CDATA[art_________+/ELvis+______liVIngIn_GENeral.............................&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;Some where along the line of creativity, I don&rsquo;t where but I definitely think about other art__as well as my own; I wonder about who influences who.( Homoeroticism refers to same-sex erotic expression that is more subtle and less explicit...]]></summary>
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        <![CDATA[<h1>art_________+/ELvis+______liVIngIn_GENeral.............................<a href="http://www.glbtq.com/arts/latin1_am_art.html" title="gbtq arts latin america"><img width="142" height="191" border="6" align="right" title="angel" alt="angel" src="http://idlg.net/blog/AngelInFrontofShop.jpg" /></a></h1><h1>&nbsp;</h1><h1>&nbsp;</h1><p>&nbsp;<span style="font-size: 16pt; font-family: &quot;Arial Rounded MT Bold&quot;">Some where along the <a target="_blank" href="http://www.nul.org/publications/SOBA/Abstracts/SOBA2007Abstracts.pdf">line</a><a target="_blank" href="http://www.nul.org/publications/SOBA/Abstracts/SOBA2007Abstracts.pdf"> </a>of creativity, </span><span style="font-family: &quot;Arial Black&quot;">I don&rsquo;t where but I definitely think about <a target="_blank" href="http://findarticles.com/p/articles/mi_m1248/is_11_93/ai_n15966812">other art</a>__as well as my own; I wonder about who influences who.(</span><span style="font-size: 10pt; font-family: Arial"> Homoeroticism refers to same-sex erotic expression that is more subtle and less explicit than overt depictions of homosexual situations and behavior. Homoerotic content in art and literature can be either consciously or unconsciously intended by the artist or author.</span><span style="font-family: &quot;Arial Black&quot;">)</span><span style="font-family: &quot;Arial Black&quot;"><span>&nbsp;&nbsp; </span>This is like my <a target="_blank" href="http://www.tendreams.org/viaud.htm">love</a> and/or friendships over time as well, who influences who? </span></p>  <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: &quot;Arial Black&quot;">&nbsp;</span></p>  <ol style="margin-top: 0in"><li class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: &quot;Arial Black&quot;">EMILio Baz viaud _________</span>Born in      Mexico City, Emilio Baz Viaud is painter      little known, even in Mexico,      whose work has only just started to be evaluated by experts. He studied      architecture but was always interested in painting, and was a pupil of the      artist Manuel Rodr&iacute;guez Lozano, who guided him along the path to his real      vocation as an artist. He did not give an individual exhibition until      1951, although he was featured in several collective exhibitions together      with such eminent artists as Siqueiros and Diego Rivera. His meticulous      technique in &quot;trompe-l'oeil&quot; style, achieved by applying oil      paints to a dry surface, was praised by his colleagues and critics of the      day, who unanimously compred his verism with the brushwork, to that of the      great Renaissance masters such as D&uuml;rer and Boticelli. In the seventies he      went through a period of abstract painting, but he is mainly known for his      work done before 1955.<span style="font-family: &quot;Arial Black&quot;" /></li><li class="MsoNormal"><span>&nbsp;</span><strong><span style="font-family: &quot;Arial Black&quot;">bEN HUr bAZ Viaud____________<a target="_blank" href="http://books.google.com/books?id=k9-3PJzbZ4MC&amp;dq=Ben+Hur+Baz+Viaud&amp;source=gbs_summary_s&amp;cad=0">+</a></span></strong></li></ol><a href="http://members.aol.com/mindwebart3/FelixGonzalezTorres1.htm" target="_blank" title="felix gonzales torres"><img width="182" height="159" border="6" align="left" src="http://idlg.net/blog/AngelOnHospitalBedWitCock.jpg" alt="angel 2" title="angel 2" /></a><br />  <h1>&nbsp;  </h1><p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: &quot;Arial Black&quot;">I&rsquo;ve not been one to think that my work exist..</span><span style="font-size: 10pt; font-family: &quot;Arial Rounded MT Bold&quot;" /></p>  <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size: 10pt; font-family: &quot;Arial Rounded MT Bold&quot;">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <img width="123" height="197" border="4" align="right" src="http://idlg.net/blog/adam4adamBoy.jpg" alt="adam4adam Boy" title="adam4adam Boy" />In a vacumn..i mean, nothing is original, </span><span style="font-size: 10pt; font-family: &quot;Arial Rounded MT Bold&quot;">and I&rsquo;m certain that my concepts, ideas, passions and expressions fall in similar groundation with others..</span><span style="font-size: 10pt; font-family: &quot;Arial Rounded MT Bold&quot;">or perhaps, I&rsquo;m projecting; claim others impulses, and ideas short of<span>&nbsp; </span>understanding what exactly is my work;</span></p><p class="MsoNormal">&nbsp;</p>  <p>&nbsp;<a target="_blank" href="http://www.culturabrasil.pro.br/portinari.htm"> http://www.culturabrasil.pro.br/portinari.htm</a></p><p><img width="300" height="381" border="0" align="left" title="condido Portinari" alt="condido Portinari" src="http://idlg.net/blog/mestico.jpg" />&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp; how different is my portrait work from the work of a brazilian a half a century ago..</p><address>Eram belas as manh&atilde;s frias na &eacute;poca da apanha do caf&eacute; e delicioso o canto dos carros de boi transportando as sacas da colheita. Quantas vezes adormec&iacute;amos sobre as sacas. A luz do sol parecia mais forte. Era somente para n&oacute;s. Ia pela estrada afora o carro vagaroso, cantando. Dorm&iacute;amos cheios de felicidades. Sonh&aacute;vamos sempre, dormindo ou n&atilde;o. Nossa imagina&ccedil;&atilde;o esvoa&ccedil;ava pelo firmamento (&hellip;). &Agrave; noite, deit&aacute;vamos na grama ao redor da igreja e de barriga para cima fic&aacute;vamos vendo as estrelas e sonhando; um perguntava ao outro o que desejava ser - as respostas eram ambiciosas: um desejava ser rei, outro general, aquele dono de circo.</address>  <p align="justify"> </p><address>Candido Portinari</address><p>&nbsp;<img width="241" height="367" border="0" align="right" src="http://idlg.net/blog/michaelslover.jpg" /></p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;The act of self-portraiture by the African-American artist necessarily engages<br />intense philosophical and conceptual problems of the ontological and epistemological<br />sort that inevitably bubble to the surface - interrogations that force one,<br />for example, to relativise the universalising claims of identity formation made in<br />the name of the Lacanian 'mirror phase'. As Ann Pellegrini has pointed out,<br />Lacanian concepts of subjectivity are inadequate for application to the racially<br />oppressed, for any 'positive' self-image of blackness secured in early identifications<br />with parental models contrasts sharply and automatically with 'the<br />distortion-effects of racism and the white gaze'.<strong>5</strong> Both racism and racialisation<br />(the process of being raced from without) constitute a system of cultural power<br />having profound effects on subjectivity. The self-portraitist must work through<br />this system of signification before she/he can get to that essential, yet ultimately<br />elusive, T. Racialisation produces the black subject as incomplete, continually in<br />process of becoming and as a locus of ambiguous and constantly shifting<br />meaning. The racialised subject becomes 'trapped' within the condition of<br />disunity, continually split into pieces, shattered, identified from without, within<br />the contexts of modernity and colonialism. This experience provides the basis<br />upon which to consider the act of self-portraiture as a potentially therapeutic<br />necessity for bonding the public racial self with the private inner self (if indeed<br />such a self exists).&nbsp; <strong>*Smalls, James(2001)'African-American self-portraiture',Third Text,15:54,47 &mdash; 62</strong></p><p>(<strong>5</strong> Ann Pellegrini,<br />Performance Anxieties:<br />Staging Psychoanalysis,<br />Staging Race, Routledge,<br />New York, 1997, p 81.)&nbsp;</p><h3><img width="315" height="470" border="2" align="middle" title="mosaic" alt="mosaic" src="http://idlg.net/blog/flickr1.jpg" /> i lept to the above, because in essence, much of my figurative work is just that, an attempt to find myself, outside of the confines of this&nbsp; <strong>&quot;system of signification&quot;&nbsp; </strong>in either context, homosexual, or black 'american' male.&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; To&nbsp; appropriate some'<a href="http://muse.jhu.edu/journals/callaloo/v023/23.1may.html" target="_blank">ting()</a>   </h3><ol><li><h2 style="text-align: justify"><sup><span style="font-size: 10pt; font-family: Arial; font-weight: normal">&nbsp;Reading Melvin Dixon's Vanishing Rooms: Experiencing &quot;the ordinary rope that can change in a&nbsp; second to a lynches&rsquo;&rsquo; noose or a rescue line&quot; <a href="http://muse.jhu.edu/journals/callaloo/v023/23.1may.html#authbio"><!--_/title--><span style="color: windowtext; text-decoration: none">Vivian M. May </span></a></span></sup><sup><span style="font-size: 10pt; font-family: Arial; font-weight: normal"><!--_/authorname-->Part 2: Plum Nelly: New Essays in Black Queer Studies</span></sup><sup><span style="font-size: 10pt; font-family: Arial; font-weight: normal" /></sup></h2></li></ol>  <h3>i&nbsp; read in a&nbsp; review of&nbsp; some one else's work..my work i think almost unconciously&nbsp; 'disrupts: philosophical distinctions between fact and value, knowledge and emotion, mind and body, self and other; polarized identity/bodily categories, including black and white, masculine and feminine, gay and straight; conventional oppositions between love and hatred, desire and destruction, empathy and appropriation; and spatial-geographical boundaries between inside and outside, home and street, heteronormative and queer spaces..'</h3><h3>.'<img width="345" height="452" border="2" align="middle" src="http://idlg.net/blog/shoppingCartBling.jpg" /></h3><h4>&nbsp;and again to appropriate someone else's turn of a phrase..in which he was speaking of Paul Cadmus's work, but I am thinking it too chacterizes much of my 'intent' ..can i say that?</h4><h4>'<a href="http://www.queer-arts.org/archive/9809/cadmus/cadmus.html" target="_blank">Cadmus</a> is just as compelling when exploring the personal and political proclivities of bodies in rest and motion. Male bodies, that is. More than most artists of his substantial stature, Cadmus has detailed with exquisite tenderness and unblinking bluntness the manner in which gay males--and the gay male gaze--represent the polemics of aesthetics.<br /> 						<br /> Think of it this way: Cadmus's nudes--and, to a lesser yet still relevant extant, his studies of societal strata--offer us an opportunity to consider that beauty, though woundingly, agonizingly, deliciously seductive, also can be a ruthless guise, a four-letter word..'<br /></h4><p>&nbsp;<img width="218" height="259" border="2" align="right" src="http://idlg.net/blog/PaulCadmus.jpg" alt="paul cadmus" title="paul cadmus" /></p><p>&nbsp;</p><h2>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp; o.k., to review; </h2><ol><li><ul><li><p><strong><span style="font-size: 10pt; font-family: Arial">Homoeroticism</span></strong></p></li><li><p><strong>self-portraiture</strong></p></li><li><p><strong>'the<br />distortion-effects of racism and the white gaze'</strong></p></li><li><p><strong>ambiguous and constantly shifting<br />meaning</strong></p></li><li><p><strong>disruption</strong></p><p><strong><br />personal and political proclivities of bodies in rest and motion. Male bodies</strong></p><p>&nbsp;<img width="248" height="341" border="2" align="left" src="http://idlg.net/blog/Homonormal.jpg" /></p><p>&nbsp;</p></li></ul></li></ol>&nbsp;o.k., how about other artist whose work I admire..awe, envy;<h4>&nbsp;<br /></h4><ul><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp; <a target="_blank" href="http://www.jackbalas.com/PAINTING/currentPaintings.html">Jack Balas</a></h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;<a target="_blank" href="http://weshempel.com/index.html"> Wes Hempel</a> </h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  <a target="_blank" href="http://www.arch.wustl.edu/art/facultyAndStaff/faculty/borgman/index.html">Mary Borgman</a> </h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp; <a target="_blank" href="http://www.projekt30.com/final_display.php?aid=1874&amp;func=display&amp;show_id=9&amp;backto=names&amp;image=1">Adin de Masi</a><br /></h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  <a target="_blank" href="http://www.aes-group.org/last_riot3.asp?number=01">AES Art Group_</a>+ VLADIMIR <strong>F</strong>RIDKES</h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp; <a target="_blank" href="http://www.elliottlouis.com/dynamic/artists/Martin_Brouillette.asp?category=A.Painting++Drawing+and+Prints">Martin Brouillette</a><br /></h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  <a target="_blank" href="http://www.kentwilliams.com/">Kent Williams</a></h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  <a target="_blank" href="http://www.anahitavossoughi.com/html/paintings.htm">Anahita Vossoughi</a> </h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  <a target="_blank" href="http://www.wuorila-stenberg.com/en/1999_2004/heodottavat.html">Henry Wuorila-Stenberg</a> </h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  <a target="_blank" href="http://www.nerdrum.com/">Odd Nerdrum</a>&nbsp; </h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  <a target="_blank" href="http://www.cheimread.com/artists/john-sonsini/">John Sonsini</a>&nbsp; </h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp; <a target="_blank" href="http://www.artnet.com/Artists/ArtistHomePage.aspx?artist_id=6006&amp;page_tab=Artworks_for_sale">Zeng Fahzhi</a></h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;<a target="_blank" href="http://www.jacobcollinspaintings.com/index.html">  Jacob collins&nbsp;</a> </h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  <a target="_blank" href="http://www.radoccia.com/Pages/Paintint1.html">Joseph radoccia</a>&nbsp; </h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  <a target="_blank" href="http://www.duggiefields.com/">Duggie Fields</a>&nbsp; </h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  <a target="_blank" href="http://www.gremardromero.com/gallery.html">david Germard Romero</a>&nbsp; </h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp; <a target="_blank" href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/miainheskyofdiamond/">maya Bloch aka mia.in.the.sky</a>&nbsp;  </h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  <a target="_blank" href="http://carlferrero.blogspot.com/">carl James ferrero</a>&nbsp; </h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  <a target="_blank" href="http://www.artnet.com/artist/10823/attila-richard-lukacs.html">Attila richard lukacs</a>&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp; </h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  <a target="_blank" href="http://scottwaters.ca/">Scott waters</a>&nbsp; </h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  <a target="_blank" href="http://www.aaronsmithart.com/">aaron Smith</a>&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;</h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  <a target="_blank" href="http://www.kyledamonranson.com/">kyle Ranson</a></h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp; <a target="_blank" href="http://www.denniscooper.net/littlecaesar.htm">dennis cooper</a></h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  <a target="_blank" href="http://www.allposters.com/gallery.asp?aid=1578067449&amp;c=c&amp;search=24064&amp;DestType=12&amp;Referrer%20=http://www.smartseekerz.com/trf?q=Albrecht+Durer&amp;kt=4&amp;kp=1&amp;GCID=s15100x003&amp;KEYWORD=albrecht+durer+painting&amp;MT=advanced&amp;OVRAW=albrecht+durer&amp;SEM=lang%3D1%26c%3Dc%26search%3D24064%26AID%3D1578067449%26GCID%3Ds15100x003%26MTID%3D2%26MKID%3D920942%26keyword%3DAlbrecht%2BDurer%2Bpaintings%26OVRAW%3Dalbrecht%2520durer%26OVKEY%3Dalbrecht%2520durer%2520painting%26OVMTC%3Dadvanced%26OVADID%3D5567938511%26OVKWID%3D28017253511">albrecht Durer</a></h4></li><li><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp; <a target="_blank" href="http://www.allposters.com/gallery.asp?aid=1578067449&amp;c=c&amp;search=24064&amp;DestType=12&amp;Referrer%20=http://www.smartseekerz.com/trf?q=Albrecht+Durer&amp;kt=4&amp;kp=1&amp;GCID=s15100x003&amp;KEYWORD=albrecht+durer+painting&amp;MT=advanced&amp;OVRAW=albrecht+durer&amp;SEM=lang%3D1%26c%3Dc%26search%3D24064%26AID%3D1578067449%26GCID%3Ds15100x003%26MTID%3D2%26MKID%3D920942%26keyword%3DAlbrecht%2BDurer%2Bpaintings%26OVRAW%3Dalbrecht%2520durer%26OVKEY%3Dalbrecht%2520durer%2520painting%26OVMTC%3Dadvanced%26OVADID%3D5567938511%26OVKWID%3D28017253511">Matthias Hermann</a>&nbsp;</h4></li></ul><ol><li><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; of course the first thing i notice about this list is that none of these artist (i think) are persons of color, or black; and in a little way, i'm kinda ashamed of that fact; like i'm way to focused on a certain subject matter that doesn't really seem to impact many black artist; or that I'm way too focused on euro/american (read white) art values. I do think I have some black artist specificly african but I failed to book mark their sites on this machine of which i am making this entry...<br />&nbsp;</h4></li></ol><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4><br />&nbsp;</h4><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4><br />&nbsp;</h4><h1><span class="RealName"><span class="fn n"><span class="given-name"><br /></span><span class="family-name" /></span></span></h1><h4>&nbsp;</h4><h4><br />&nbsp;</h4>]]>
        
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        <![CDATA[<p>&nbsp; this is a lie..<span class="whitetext12" /></p><h2><a href="http://www.oakland.com/neighborhoods/" target="_blank">West Oakland</a></h2>  <div class="blurb">One would believe that with its proximity to mass transit that West Oakland would be getting its piece of the redevelopment pie, maybe even a larger slice. But, alas, the way things work in city politics, with city money aren't always the way things should work. However, West Oakland has become a haven for artists and techies, for anyone seeking a huge live/work space on the cheap. That's right, all of those warehouses are being converted and they're being gobbled up by those who can predict the future because where go the people so follows the business ( is that economics 116 or 140) and with the surge of people flooding West Oakland it won't be long before you can walk out your loft garage door and hang out at the corner coffee shop.</div><h2>&nbsp;Where I live..</h2><h1 class="firstHeading"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California" target="_blank">Ghost Town, Oakland, California</a></h1> 		 			<h3>From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia</h3> 			<div id="contentSub">&nbsp;&nbsp;(Redirected from <a title="Ghostown, Oakland, California" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/w/index.php?title=Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California&amp;redirect=no">Ghostown, Oakland, California</a>)</div> 									<div id="jump-to-nav">Jump to: <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#column-one">navigation</a>, <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#searchInput">search</a></div>			<!-- start content --> 			<p><strong>Ghost Town</strong> (sometimes spelled <strong>Ghosttown</strong>) is the informal name of the Foster Hoover Historic District neighborhood in <a title="West Oakland, Oakland, California" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/West_Oakland%2C_Oakland%2C_California">West Oakland</a>, <a title="Oakland, California" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oakland%2C_California">Oakland</a>, <a title="California" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/California">California</a>. <sup class="reference"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_note-ostler-0">[1]</a></sup> <sup class="reference"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_note-antonioli-1">[2]</a></sup> The community is known for its violence and blight. <sup class="reference"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_note-ostler-0">[1]</a></sup> <sup class="reference"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_note-2">[3]</a></sup> <sup class="reference"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_note-violence-3">[4]</a></sup> The name probably originated from the two casket companies operating side by side on Filbert Street between 30th and 32nd Streets. One of these companies, &quot;American Burial Casket Co&quot; (sign intact) is located at 3102 Filbert Street. The second company was located at 3104 Filbert Street (no signage).<sup class="noprint Template-Fact"><span style="white-space: nowrap">[<em><a title="Wikipedia:Citation needed" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wikipedia:Citation_needed">citation needed</a></em>]</span></sup> Other explanations for the name may have originated in the times when <a title="Eminent domain" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eminent_domain">eminent domain</a> forced hundreds of families out of their homes and the town looked like a <a title="Ghost town" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghost_town">ghost town</a>.<sup class="reference"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_note-antonioli-1">[2]</a></sup> Another anecdote refers to the town as having so many killings it was becoming a ghost town.<sup class="reference"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_note-antonioli-1">[2]</a></sup> It stretches from 31st Street to 35th Street in the area immediately southwest of the <a title="Macarthur Maze" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Macarthur_Maze">Macarthur Maze</a>.<sup class="reference"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_note-antonioli-1">[2]</a></sup> <sup class="reference"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_note-ostler-0">[1]</a></sup> This neighborhood once had active <a title="Citizen patrol" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Citizen_patrol">citizen crime patrols</a>, including one group of seniors who walk the neighborhood weekly to get physical exercise and report blight.<sup class="reference"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_note-4">[5]</a></sup> <a title="Jerry Brown" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jerry_Brown">Jerry Brown</a>, formerly <a title="Governor" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Governor">governor</a> of California and <a title="Mayor of Oakland" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mayor_of_Oakland">Mayor of Oakland</a> stated: &quot;Instead of an omnibus crime bill, you have to deal with shootings in Ghostown in <a title="West Oakland, Oakland, California" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/West_Oakland%2C_Oakland%2C_California">West Oakland</a> and <a title="Sideshow (automobile exhibition)" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sideshow_%28automobile_exhibition%29">sideshows</a> in <a title="East Oakland, Oakland, California" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/East_Oakland%2C_Oakland%2C_California">East Oakland</a>.&quot;<sup class="reference"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_note-5">[6]</a></sup> Brown made attempts to turn around the blighted West Oakland neighborhood after &quot;<a title="60 Minutes" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/60_Minutes">60 Minutes</a>&quot; featured it in a television profile. <sup class="reference"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_note-violence-3">[4]</a></sup></p> <p>The term <a title="Ghost ride" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghost_ride">&quot;Ghost riding&quot;</a> has been attributed to this Oakland neighborhood. According to the <em><a title="Contra Costa Times" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Contra_Costa_Times">Contra Costa Times</a></em> and <em><a title="The Washington Post" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Washington_Post">The Washington Post</a></em>, local rapper <a title="Mistah F.A.B." href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mistah_F.A.B.">Mistah F.A.B.</a> popularized the term with his song &quot;Ghost Ride It&quot;<sup class="reference"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_note-6">[7]</a></sup> and speculated that its origins are in Ghosttown.<sup class="reference"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_note-7">[8]</a></sup></p> <p><a name="City-County_Neighborhood_Initiative"></a></p> <h3><span class="editsection">[<a title="Edit section: City-County Neighborhood Initiative" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/w/index.php?title=Ghost_Town%2C_Oakland%2C_California&amp;action=edit&amp;section=1">edit</a>]</span> <span class="mw-headline">City-County Neighborhood Initiative</span></h3> <p>Both Ghosttown and <a title="Sobrante Park, Oakland, California" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sobrante_Park%2C_Oakland%2C_California">Sobrante Park</a>, were targeted for youth intervention programs by the city of Oakland in their &quot;Measure Y&quot; campaigns.<sup class="reference"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_note-initiative-8">[9]</a></sup> The specific program is termed by the city the &quot;City-County Neighborhood Initiative&quot;. Its strategy, according to the Human Services Department, is &quot;based on best practices, has community builders going door-to-door to support and encourage neighbors to address their issues (e.g., typically truant youth, blight, and drug dealing) and help them ultimately to organize (e.g., Friends of Durant Park, West Oakland Mini-Grant Committee, Resident Action Council, Block captains, <a title="Neighborhood watch" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neighborhood_watch">neighborhood watches</a>, Home Alert, Renters or <a title="Homeowners' association" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Homeowners%27_association">Home Owners&rsquo; Associations</a>) and take ownership of their communities. This strategy is based on the theory that violence must be addressed in the context of the community in which it occurs.&quot; <sup class="reference"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_note-initiative-8">[9]</a></sup></p> <p><a name="Notes_and_references"></a></p> <h2><span class="editsection">[<a title="Edit section: Notes and references" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/w/index.php?title=Ghost_Town%2C_Oakland%2C_California&amp;action=edit&amp;section=2">edit</a>]</span> <span class="mw-headline">Notes and references</span></h2> <div style="-moz-column-count: 2" class="references-small"> <ol class="references"><li>^ <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_ref-ostler_0-0"><sup><em><strong>a</strong></em></sup></a> <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_ref-ostler_0-1"><sup><em><strong>b</strong></em></sup></a> <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_ref-ostler_0-2"><sup><em><strong>c</strong></em></sup></a> Ostler, Scott (<a title="June 22" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/June_22">June 22</a>, <a title="2007" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2007">2007</a>). &quot;<a title="http://sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?file=/c/a/2007/06/22/MNG1TQJOI21.DTL" href="http://sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?file=/c/a/2007/06/22/MNG1TQJOI21.DTL">Baseball Brings Life: Boy's death spurs Oakland couple to save neighborhood kids one game at a time</a>&quot;, <a title="San Francisco Chronicle" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/San_Francisco_Chronicle">San Francisco Chronicle</a><span class="reference-accessdate">. Retrieved on <a title="2007" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2007">2007</a>-<a title="September 25" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/September_25">09-25</a></span>.&nbsp;&quot;Ghost Town is a violence-ridden West Oakland neighborhood, violent even by Oakland standards. Google a murder map of Oakland, and a cluster of dots pop up in the little area tucked just southwest of the MacArthur Maze.&quot;<span class="Z3988"><span style="display: none">&nbsp;</span></span></li><li>^ <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_ref-antonioli_1-0"><sup><em><strong>a</strong></em></sup></a> <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_ref-antonioli_1-1"><sup><em><strong>b</strong></em></sup></a> <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_ref-antonioli_1-2"><sup><em><strong>c</strong></em></sup></a> <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_ref-antonioli_1-3"><sup><em><strong>d</strong></em></sup></a> <a title="Dan Antonioli" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dan_Antonioli">Antonioli, Dan</a>. &quot;<a title="http://www.611ecovillage.com/neighbrhd.html" href="http://www.611ecovillage.com/neighbrhd.html">A Short History of Ghost Town</a>&quot;. Retrieved on <a title="2007" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2007">2007</a>-<a title="September 25" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/September_25">09-25</a>.&nbsp;&ldquo;In the five years that I&rsquo;ve lived here I&rsquo;ve heard many an oral history of ghost town. I can tell you straight up that ghost town lives. Ghosties are real, they know they live in ghost town, and they have a strong sense of identity with this community.&rdquo;</li><li><strong><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_ref-2">^</a></strong> &quot;<a title="http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/e/a/1998/07/09/NEWS13293.dtl&amp;hw=ghost+town+oakland&amp;sn=018&amp;sc=569" href="http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/e/a/1998/07/09/NEWS13293.dtl&amp;hw=ghost+town+oakland&amp;sn=018&amp;sc=569">Oakland nabs drug suspects.</a>&quot;, <a title="San Francisco Chronicle" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/San_Francisco_Chronicle">San Francisco Chronicle</a> (<a title="July 9" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/July_9">July 9</a>, <a title="1998" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/1998">1998</a>)<span class="reference-accessdate">. Retrieved on <a title="2007" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2007">2007</a>-<a title="September 25" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/September_25">09-25</a></span>.&nbsp;&quot;Narcotics officers continued to pursue drug suspects in West Oakland's notorious Ghost Town area Thursday in an aggressive two-day sweep officials hope will clean up some of the city's drug-infested housing projects. As of Thursday morning, 25 suspects...&quot;<span class="Z3988"><span style="display: none">&nbsp;</span></span></li><li>^ <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_ref-violence_3-0"><sup><em><strong>a</strong></em></sup></a> <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_ref-violence_3-1"><sup><em><strong>b</strong></em></sup></a> &quot;<a title="http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/c/a/2001/01/24/MNE153452.DTL" href="http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/c/a/2001/01/24/MNE153452.DTL">'Ghost Town' a Work in Progress.</a>&quot;, <a title="San Francisco Chronicle" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/San_Francisco_Chronicle">San Francisco Chronicle</a> (<a title="January 24" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/January_24">January 24</a>, <a title="2001" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2001">2001</a>)<span class="reference-accessdate">. Retrieved on <a title="2007" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2007">2007</a>-<a title="September 25" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/September_25">09-25</a></span>.&nbsp;&quot;So now, as Brown prepares to deliver his State of the City address tomorrow, how have things turned out in the mayor's little crusade to reshape the neighborhood known on the streets as &quot;Ghost Town?&quot; ... On the other hand, litter and crime continue to the haunt the neighborhood.&quot;<span class="Z3988"><span style="display: none">&nbsp;</span></span></li><li><strong><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_ref-4">^</a></strong> &quot;<a title="http://sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/c/a/2007/05/27/BAGLRQ2BVP1.DTL" href="http://sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/c/a/2007/05/27/BAGLRQ2BVP1.DTL">Eyes, ears, feet on streets; Citizen groups gather to patrol neighborhoods, help law enforcement</a>&quot;, <a title="San Francisco Chronicle" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/San_Francisco_Chronicle">San Francisco Chronicle</a> (<a title="May 27" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/May_27">May 27</a>, <a title="2007" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2007">2007</a>)<span class="reference-accessdate">. Retrieved on <a title="2007" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2007">2007</a>-<a title="September 25" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/September_25">09-25</a></span>.&nbsp;&quot;Jennie Black placed an orange safety vest on the back of her motorized wheelchair. A sign taped to the garment said &quot;Feet on the Street.&quot; That's the name of a group of seniors she joined two years ago. Every Tuesday, they patrol Oakland's Ghost Town neighborhood.&quot;<span class="Z3988"><span style="display: none">&nbsp;</span></span></li><li><strong><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_ref-5">^</a></strong> DeFao, Janine; Zamora, Jim Herron (<a title="October 9" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/October_9">October 9</a>, <a title="2005" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2005">2005</a>). &quot;<a title="http://sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?file=/c/a/2005/10/09/BAGH3F4PLP1.DTL" href="http://sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?file=/c/a/2005/10/09/BAGH3F4PLP1.DTL">Dellums may face big reality check</a>&quot;, <a title="San Francisco Chronicle" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/San_Francisco_Chronicle">San Francisco Chronicle</a><span class="reference-accessdate">. Retrieved on <a title="2007" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2007">2007</a>-<a title="September 25" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/September_25">09-25</a></span>.&nbsp;&quot;Brown, who nearly a year ago endorsed Dellums' main rival, City Council President Ignacio De La Fuente, added, &quot;Instead of an omnibus crime bill, you have to deal with shootings in Ghosttown in West Oakland and sideshows in East Oakland.&quot;&quot;<span class="Z3988"><span style="display: none">&nbsp;</span></span></li><li><strong><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_ref-6">^</a></strong> <a title="http://news.google.com/archivesearch?q=%22Mistah+F.A.B.%22+%22ghost+ride+it%22+popularized&amp;btnG=Search+Archives&amp;ie=UTF-8&amp;oe=utf-8&amp;um=1" href="http://news.google.com/archivesearch?q=%22Mistah+F.A.B.%22+%22ghost+ride+it%22+popularized&amp;btnG=Search+Archives&amp;ie=UTF-8&amp;oe=utf-8&amp;um=1">&quot;The hip list: best, worst of '06&quot;</a>, <em><a title="Contra Costa Times" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Contra_Costa_Times">Contra Costa Times</a></em>, <a title="December 26" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/December_26">December 26</a>, <a title="2006" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2006">2006</a>. &quot;Ghost ride it: Popularized By Mistah FAB's song of The same name, The act of dancing on Top of a car in drive has become The newest fad to puzzle parents. ... &quot; Accessed <a title="October 20" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/October_20">October 20</a>, <a title="2007" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2007">2007</a>.</li><li><strong><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_ref-7">^</a></strong> Farhi, Paul. <a title="http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2006/12/26/AR2006122600994_pf.html" href="http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2006/12/26/AR2006122600994_pf.html">&quot;Ghost-Riding: Brake-Dancing With Zip Under the Hood&quot;</a>, <em><a title="The Washington Post" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Washington_Post">The Washington Post</a></em>, <a title="December 27" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/December_27">December 27</a>, <a title="2006" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2006">2006</a>, p. C01. Accessed <a title="October 18" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/October_18">October 18</a>, <a title="2007" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2007">2007</a>. &quot;Although such antics probably began with the invention of the automobile, ghost-riding seems to have sprung from Oakland's &quot;hyphy&quot; movement, a hip-hop style with its own slang, fashion and car culture. Dating back to at least the 1980s, young people on Oakland's tough east side have been staging impromptu car rallies, or &quot;sideshows.&quot;... F.A.B. (real name: Stanley Cox) says in an interview that he first saw people ghost-riding about 10 years ago in Oakland's &quot;Ghosttown&quot; section (where he thinks the name might have originated).&quot;</li><li>^ <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_ref-initiative_8-0"><sup><em><strong>a</strong></em></sup></a> <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ghostown%2C_Oakland%2C_California#cite_ref-initiative_8-1"><sup><em><strong>b</strong></em></sup></a> &quot;<a title="http://www.oaklandhumanservices.org/initiatives/VPPSA/MeasureYGrantees.htm" href="http://www.oaklandhumanservices.org/initiatives/VPPSA/MeasureYGrantees.htm">Programs for families and children</a>&quot;. <a title="Oakland, California" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oakland%2C_California">Oakland, California</a>. Retrieved on <a title="2007" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2007">2007</a>-<a title="September 25" href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/September_25">09-25</a>.&nbsp;&ldquo;The City-County Neighborhood Initiative, a program run by the City of Oakland Division of Neighborhood Services operates in two neighborhoods, in Ghost Town Foster Hoover Historic District in West Oakland and Sobrante Park in East Oakland. The community builders work closely with teams of service agencies including the Service Delivery System (SDS) Teams, Neighborhood Services Coordinators, County agencies, schools, and local non-profit agencies. In the neighborhoods currently participating in the initiative, youth have become a key focus for neighborhood organizing.&rdquo;</li></ol></div><div style="-moz-column-count: 2" class="references-small">&nbsp;</div><div style="-moz-column-count: 2" class="references-small">&nbsp;</div><div align="justify" style="-moz-column-count: 2" class="references-small">                 <a href="http://www.blacknewworld.com/" target="_blank"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica-Bold','Helvetica','Arial','sans-serif'; font-size: 12px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 14px"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica','Arial','sans-serif'; font-size: 12px; line-height: 14px"><span style="font-family: 'Helvetica-Bold','Helvetica','Arial','sans-serif'; font-size: 12px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 14px">The Village Bottoms Community Building and &nbsp;Development Company&nbsp;</span></span></span></a></div><div align="justify" style="-moz-column-count: 2" class="references-small">&nbsp;</div><img width="489" height="236" border="0" align="right" src="http://idlg.net/blog/BNW-IMAGE.jpg" alt="BNW" title="BNW" /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; I thought I would have some ting to say about the little area of the world of which i currently reside; so I've drop'd some stuff here that is on the internet.</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; I don't really know alot about west oakland on the personal side, since i've only resided there now for the last year.&nbsp; I can not say I like the area__for one thing, seems most of the stores in the area are way too over priced for the most simple things and I'm talking about food; secondly, there is very little culture in west oakland, except for these tight little in groups whom are not too friendly or out reaching or inviting to new members.&nbsp; Thirdly, I won't go out after a certain hour of night for fear of being hasseled by drug additics, or whores, or punks just looking for bs. I don't find folks too friendly in West Oakland although I do find them very very nosey; meaning they watch you and stare but they do not speak.&nbsp; In a year, I have not been able to make a single friend, and that include the young bloods whom have crawled into my bed for sex, but unwilling or reluctant to follow through with friendship.??</p><h3>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;  <br /></h3><h1><a href="http://www.epa.gov/care/west_oakland.htm" target="_blank">West Oakland Toxics Reduction Collaborative</a> </h1><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; My experiences have not been great; the first was moving into a building at 33rd St, and San Pablo, going through the usual walk through with the manager, transfering my existing services from my previous occupancy__well, the building changed owners just after I moved in; and the new owners are bigoted and stupid people; the new manager was insensitive enough to suggest I shouldn't have moved into the building with it's existing problems (duh, but you guys bought the building with it's existing problems..); the PG&amp;E failed to transfer and for several months i received two seperate PG&amp;E bills; then when they did get it right, they faild to bill me for gas until after a three months period of which time they billed me for it all (of course this is post a cold snap).&nbsp; My phone service didn't take and I had to order new services for everything including my internet options; the only thing that did work the day i moved in was cable..go figure.</p><p>&nbsp;</p><h2><a target="_blank" href="http://www.prisonplanet.com/articles/january2007/220107mexicangangs.htm">&nbsp;</a><span class="headlinenew"><a target="_blank" href="http://www.prisonplanet.com/articles/january2007/220107mexicangangs.htm">Racist Mexican          Gangs</a> &quot;Ethnic Cleansing&quot; Blacks In L.A.</span></h2><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <span class="headllinenew"><span class="headllinenew"><span class="headllinenew"><img width="350" height="250" border="1" src="http://www.prisonplanet.com/images/january2007/220107mexicans4.jpg" /></span>          <!--start-->         </span></span>        </p><p align="left" class="subhead"><span class="headlinenew"><span class="headllinenew"><br />         </span>Latino thugs indiscriminately murder blacks regardless of gang          membership, genocidal purge aligns with radical Aztlan theology        </span></p>          <p class="mediumtext1"><em>Paul Joseph Watson</em><br />           <a href="http://www.prisonplanet.com/index.html">Prison Planet</a><br />           Monday, January 22, 2007</p>         <p>Racist Mexican gangs are indiscriminately targeting blacks who aren't            even involved in gang culture, as part of an orchestrated ethnic cleansing            program that is forcing black people to flee Los Angeles. The culprit            of the carnage is the radical Neo-Nazi liberation theology known as            La Raza, which calls for the extermination of all races in America besides            Latinos, and is being bankrolled by some of the biggest Globalists in            the U.S.</p>         <p>A <a target="_blank" href="http://www.alternet.org/story/46855/">story            carried on the liberal website Alternet</a>, charts an explosion in            brutal murders of blacks by Hispanic street gangs in L.A. Far from being            gang on gang violence, the Latinos are targeting innocent blacks in            accordance with a concerted ethnic cleansing campaign that seeks to            eradicate all blacks from Hispanic neighborhoods.</p>         <p>In one instance, 21-year-old Anthony Prudhomme was shot in the face            with a .25-caliber semi-automatic while lying on a futon inside his            apartment, slain by a Latino gang known as the Avenues as part of a            racist terror campaign in which gang members earn &quot;stripes&quot;            for each black person they kill.</p>         <p>In one typical case,&quot; writes journalist Brentin Mock, &quot;Three            members of the Pomona 12 attacked an African-American teenager, Kareem            Williams, in his front yard in 2002. When his uncle, Roy Williams, ran            to help his nephew, gang member Richard Diaz told him, &quot;Niggers            have no business living in Pomona because this is 12th Street territory.&quot;            According to witnesses, Diaz then told the other gang members, &quot;Pull            out the gun! Shoot the niggers! Shoot the niggers!&quot;</p>         <p>The fatwah against blacks began in the mid-nineties, with a 1995 LAPD            report concluding that Latinos had vowed to &quot;Eradicate black citizens            from the gang neighborhood.&quot; In a follow up report on the situation            in east Los Angeles, the LAPD warned that &quot;Local gangs will attack            any black person that comes into the city.&quot;</p>         <p>The author notes that since 1990 the African-American population of            Los Angeles has halved, partly as a result of rampant illegal immigration            and that there are noticeably fewer blacks walking the streets because            many have been forced to relocate in fear of the racist gangs. </p>         <p><span class="headllinenew"><span class="headllinenew"><span class="headllinenew"><img width="400" height="265" border="1" src="http://www.prisonplanet.com/images/january2007/220107mexicans5.jpg" /></span></span></span></p>         <p>&quot;The LAPD estimates there are now 22,000 Latino gang members in            the city of Los Angeles alone. That's not only more than all the Crips            and the Bloods; it's more than all black, Asian, and white gang members            combined. Almost all of those Latino gang members in L.A. -- let alone            those in other California cities -- are loyal to the Mexican Mafia.            Most have been thoroughly indoctrinated with the Mexican Mafia's violent            racism during stints in prison, where most gangs are racially based,&quot;            writes Mock.</p>         <p>Mock blames the &quot;Mexican Mafia&quot; for ordering the campaign            of ethnic cleansing from prison, as part of a turf war with the Black            Guerilla family, another prison gang, but fails to pinpoint the racist            creed from which the Mexican kingpins draw their inspiration - the long            standing Aztlan invasion agenda.</p>         <p>Aztlan's goal, known as La reconquista, is to cede and take over the            entirety of the southern and western states by any means necessary and            impose a Communist militant dictatorship. President Bush's <a target="_blank" href="http://www.stoptheftaa.org/artman/publish/article_91.shtml">blanket            amnesty program</a> goes a long way to helping the extremists achieve            their aim. </p>                  <p>Despite the fact that the <a href="http://www.nctimes.com/articles/2005/08/17/news/top_stories/21_01_298_16_05.txt">majority            of documented hispanics oppose illegal immigration</a>, as do the <a href="http://washingtontimes.com/national/20040107-112928-8976r.htm">majority            of Americans</a>, Aztlan and La Raza race hate groups have become the            self-appointed voice for a separatist movement that threatens a violent            overthrow of the Constitutional system and a barbaric program of ethnic            cleansing. This is held up by the media as 'diversity' and to vociferously            oppose it is scorned as racism.</p>         <p>Aztlan and Mecha groups advocate killing all whites and blacks and            driving them out of the southern states by means of brutal ethnic cleansing.            Flags and placards carried at marches depict white people having their            heads cut off, as seen in the picture below.</p>         <p><a href="http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Propaganda_Matrix/"><img width="140" height="93" border="1" src="http://www.prisonplanet.com/images/march2006/290306atzlan1.jpg" /></a></p>         <p>Those that protest such groups are then attacked by the establishment            media and labeled as racists, despite the fact that the <a href="http://infowars.net/Pages/Sept05/200905TCRR_attacks_Alex.htm">Plan            of San Diego</a>, a rallying cry for the hispanic Klan groups, advocates            total eradication of any race but hispanics.</p>         <p>Mecha's own slogan reads, &quot;For the race everything. For those            outside the race, nothing.&quot;</p>         <p>TV stations owned by rich white industrialists erect giant billboards            in Los Angeles claiming the city belongs to Mexico, as seen below.</p>         <p class="mediumtext1"><a href="http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Propaganda_Matrix/"><img width="335" height="253" border="1" src="http://www.prisonplanet.com/images/march2006/290306atzlan2.jpg" /></a></p>         <p>Mainstream hispanics who love America abhor the virulent racism that            the Mexican klan groups embrace.</p>         <p>And who bankrolls these pocket radicals? Billionaire tax-exempt foundations            and NGO's owned by white men. Organizations like the <a href="http://www.theamericanresistance.com/articles/art2000fall_sc_funding_hate_3.html">Ford            Foundation</a>, groups who are zealous in their quest to eliminate the            middle class and destroy America, turning it into a cashless society,            compact city, surveillance control grid where only two tiers of society            exist - the elite and the poor slaves.</p>         <p>During the May immigration protests, The Aztlan<a href="http://www.aztlan.net/la_gran_marcha.htm">website<strong>            </strong></a>carried the following statement.</p>         <p>&quot;If the racist &quot;Sensenbrenner Legislation&quot; passes the            US Senate, there is no doubt that a massive civil disobedience movement            will emerge. Eventually labor union power can merge with the immigrant            civil rights and &quot;Immigrant Sanctuary&quot; movements to enable            us to either form a new political party or to do heavy duty reforming            of the existing Democratic Party. The next and final steps would follow            and that is to elect our own governors of all the states within Aztlan.&quot;</p>         <p>Here is the open call for violent separatism and the overthrow of existing            state government structures.</p>         <p><span class="headllinenew"><span class="headllinenew"><span class="headllinenew"><img width="380" height="249" border="1" src="http://www.prisonplanet.com/images/january2007/220107mexicans3.jpg" /></span></span></span></p>         <p>During the immigration demonstrations, which were <a target="_blank" href="http://www.prisonplanet.com/articles/may2006/010506mayday.htm">orchestrated            by Rob Allyn of Rob Allyn &amp; Co.</a> who is closely tied with George            W. Bush, alarming reports of illegals carrying out violent beatings            began to surface. In Santa Ana California, illegal aliens <a target="_blank" href="http://www.prisonplanet.com/articles/may2006/040506violentinvasion.htm">swarmed            around in mobs invading schools, carrying out violent beatings</a> and            in one incident a county worker had a Mexican flag plunged into his            chest.</p>         <p>The violent protests that began on May 1 last year <a target="_blank" href="http://prisonplanet.com/articles/may2006/020506Mexicans.htm">were            characterized</a> by throngs marching under Mexican flags, many of which            were illegal aliens, as a &quot;day without gringos.&quot; </p>         <p>Imagine what the reaction would be if white middle class Americans            marched in their millions and called the event &quot;a day without blacks.&quot;</p>         <p>The media continues to run defense for a violent militant movement            that seeks nothing less than the eradication of blacks and whites through            ethnic cleansing and the takeover of the southern and western states.            This is a separatist junta that has over 30,000 ruthless gang members            at its disposal once the call for mobilization is heard, along with            millions of illegal aliens pouring across the border.</p>         <p><span class="headllinenew"><span class="headllinenew"><span class="headllinenew"><img width="440" height="328" border="1" src="http://www.prisonplanet.com/images/january2007/220107mexicans2.jpg" /></span></span></span></p>         These thugs have the temerity to call Latinos, blacks and whites who            are opposed to uncontrolled illegal immigration racists when it is their            own La reconquista philosophy that has spawned target hits in Los Angeles            as part of a virulently racist ethnic cleansing rampage. It's a bloodlust            that can only spread to other cities as the realization of Aztlan is            generously aided by billionaire Globalists who wish to see America balkanized,            plundered and destroyed.]]>
        <![CDATA[<p>&nbsp;<img width="400" height="290" border="0" align="left" src="http://idlg.net/blog/jimsBuick.jpg" /></p><p><span><h1 class="articleTitle">Gang leaders arrested but violence continues in West Oakland</h1><!--subtitle--><!--byline--><div class="articleByline" id="articleByline">By Cecily Burt<br />Oakland Tribune</div><!--date--><div class="articleDate" id="articleDate">Article Last Updated:&nbsp;07/28/2008 11:08:21 PM PDT</div><br /><span><span><span><div class="articleBody" id="articleBody"><div style="border: 0px none " id="articleViewerGroup" class="articleViewerGroup">                 					var requestedWidth = 0;                 				<span class="articleEmbeddedViewerBox"><span><span /></span></span></div>                 				if(requestedWidth &gt; 0){ 									document.getElementById('articleViewerGroup').style.width = requestedWidth + &quot;px&quot;;                 					document.getElementById('articleViewerGroup').style.margin = &quot;0px 0px 10px 10px&quot;;                 				}                 			<span><p class="bodytext">Two- and 3-year-olds diving for cover at the first staccato pops of gunfire. Windows shot out in the local Head Start center. Parents afraid to let their children leave the house for fear they'll never return.</p><p>That is daily life as some West Oakland residents know it. </p><p>And it's been like that since Oakland police announced June 17 that they'd made 54 arrests in the Operation Nutcracker case, a huge law enforcement effort targeting members of the notorious Acorn drug gang believed responsible for dozens of murders and the main instigator of a violent feud with gangs in Lower Bottoms and Ghost Town.</p><p>&quot;Removing the criminal gang in Acorn and other suppression efforts have not been enough,&quot; Oakland Police Capt. Anthony Toribio said during a heated community meeting last week. &quot;Police alone cannot solve the problem.&quot;</p><p>An overflow crowd of nearly 100 residents who live in the Acorn, Mohr and City Towers housing complexes on 7th and 8th streets jammed into a meeting room at Acorn last Wednesday to express their frustration with the violence in their community and demand action from the police &mdash; and each other.</p><p>The gathering followed seven straight days of random shootings in the area.</p><p>&quot;Since Nutcracker happened, everyone is in jail, and we're gettin' shot at,&quot; yelled one young female resident who lives in Mohr housing. </p><p>That sentiment was echoed during the heated meeting, where residents shouted over each other an</p></span></div></span><span><span>d police and city representatives who tried to introduce new topics.<p>&quot;We're afraid to go outside,&quot; shouted another.</p><p>At a news conference to announce the huge Nutcracker gang bust last month, Oakland homicide Lt. Ersie Joyner said police believed they had dismantled the Acorn gang's infrastructure with the arrest of alleged ringleader Mark Anthony Candler, aka M.A.C. 34. </p><p>The peace was short-lived, and on Wednesday, Joyner acknowledged that with the ringleaders cleared out, others are moving in to take up the slack.</p><p>The violence is not limited to West Oakland. The city had logged 73 homicides before Wednesday's meeting, and there have been four more since then.</p><p>Although most of the murders have been concentrated in East Oakland since the Nutcracker arrests, angry West Oakland residents said they are dodging bullets and that it's a miracle more people haven't died.</p><p>&quot;I've been at Highland (Hospital) every day for seven days this week,&quot; said an angry Ikeiya Johnson. &quot;Four or five different people I know got shot.&quot;</p><p>Oakland police and city officials had scheduled the meeting and tried to follow an agenda. But few in the audience wanted to hear about earthquake preparedness or plans to start a restorative justice program in the schools, or the newest police academy or jobs for ex-felons. </p><p>Toribio said he understood the residents' frustration and agreed that things had gotten worse. Residents called it a state-of-emergency, and he didn't disagree. But he said the community needs to be better organized and start neighborhood watch groups to get to know one another and share information.</p><p>He said that victims in recent shootings have refused to help police investigators, and the families of victims won't help either. </p><p>Toribio said residents need to overcome their distrust of the police or the violence will never end. </p><p>&quot;You can blame the police ... but it goes both ways,&quot; Toribio said.</p><p>There have been three murders &mdash; two just down the street from Acorn &mdash; and more than 30 reported shootings in West Oakland since police agencies swooped in and made the arrests last month, Toribio said. Many more shootings go unreported. He said robberies are up, too.</p><p>He promised that there would be more walking officers and bicycle officers in the neighborhoods in the coming weeks and months. He said officers would have zero tolerance for public drinking, gambling and reckless driving, activities that often take a back seat as overwhelmed officers tend to more violent crimes.</p><p>Carmen Baires is social services director at St. Vincent's Day Home, a facility for 230 children from low-income families, on 8th Street, across from City Towers, where many of the gang members were arrested. She said she worries how the daily violence is affecting her young charges enrolled in preschool there.</p><p>&quot;They know how to dive when they hear the shots, but when we call the police, they ask 'Did you see who did it?' The children tell me, 'Miss Carmen, my heart is pounding.'&quot;</p><p>Corinne Mohrmann, executive director of St. Vincent's, said the violence surrounding the school means that ducking for cover is part of the curriculum, along with ABCs, painting and nap time.</p><p>&quot;Yes, it does rip your heart out to see a 2-year-old hit the ground, but the violence is happening right outside our door,&quot; Mohrmann said.</p><p>&quot;Life's realities should not be burdensome to children of such a young age, but they are,&quot; she added. &quot;I certainly don't surmise to have the answers, but I can assure you, the cops will not clean this up until people start (showing) their children how to be responsible adults.</p><p>&quot;It's not just a police issue here; all of us should be stepping up,&quot; she said.</p><p>Jeff Baker with the Oakland City Administrator's office scheduled another meeting for 7 p.m. Wednesday to allow residents an opportunity to be heard and to assist them with organizing and other concerns. The meeting will be held at Acorn, 1143 10th St., in Oakland.</p></span></span></span></span></span></p><h1><span><span><span><span><span><p>&nbsp;<img width="392" height="449" border="0" align="right" src="http://idlg.net/blog/LA.jpg" /></p></span></span></span></span></span></h1><h1><a target="_blank" href="http://www.newsweek.com/id/61950">Racial &lsquo;Cleansing&rsquo; </a>in L.A.</h1>       <div id="deck" class="deck">         <h2>Federal prosecutors say a powerful Latino gang systematically targeted rival black gang members and innocent black civilians in a reign of terror.</h2>       </div><p>A <a title="Los Angeles" href="http://www.newsweek.com/related.aspx?subject=Los+Angeles">south Los Angeles</a> Latino street gang targeted African-American gang rivals and other blacks in a campaign of neighborhood &quot;cleansing,&quot; federal prosecutors say. Alleged leaders and foot soldiers in the Hispanic gang Florencia 13, also called F13, are being arraigned this week on charges stemming from a pair of federal indictments that allege that the gang kept a tight grip on its turf by shooting members of a rival gang&mdash;and sometimes random black civilians. The &quot;most disturbing aspect&quot; of the federal charges was that &quot;innocent citizens &hellip; ended up being shot simply because of the color of their skin,&quot; U.S. Attorney Thomas O'Brien told reporters in announcing the indictments.</p>           <p>No one is sure what started the war between F13 and the black gang known as the East Coast <a title="Crips Street Gang" href="http://www.newsweek.com/related.aspx?subject=Crips+Street+Gang">Crips</a> in the Florence-Firestone area of unincorporated L.A. County. Simple neighborhood demographic shifts played a role, as formerly black areas have become majority-Latino. The two gangs are also rivals in the lucrative drug trade. Much of the F13 indictments lay out a conspiracy alleging that gang members controlled drug houses where they sold large amounts of cocaine, crack and methamphetamine. Some say the killings began after the Crips pulled a large drug heist against F13 several years ago. Whatever the causes, L.A. Sheriff's Department statistics chart the war's violent toll: 80 gang-related shootings in the past three years, including 20 murders.</p>           <p>The federal charges name 61 alleged F13 members in two indictments. The gang-violence charges came in a 53-count RICO (Racketeer Influenced and Corrupt Organizations) indictment against 24 alleged gang leaders, charging them in a conspiracy to sell drugs, possess weapons illegally, and assault and kill black gang members and civilians. In the second indictment prosecutors charged the rest of the men on federal drug-distribution charges. More than 40 of the defendants pleaded not guilty at arraignments Tuesday, according to prosecutors. Michael Khouri, an attorney for Luis Aguilar, 35, says his client left the gang &quot;several years ago&quot; and served recently as a gang negotiator. &quot;Mr. Aguilar will plead not guilty, and he is not guilty,&quot; says Khouri. Fifteen of the accused remain fugitives.</p><p>The indictments provide a telling snapshot of the changing nature of gangs in south L.A. According to federal prosecutors, F13 has grown into a tightly controlled gang of 2,000 members in 30 cliques led by convicts and parolees who are members of the prison-based Mexican mafia. It's a far cry from the '80s, when the black drug gangs, including the Crips and the Bloods, predominated, mining the crack epidemic with ruthless efficiency. Compared with looser Latino gangs that were seen as turf-conscious fighters, the black gangs were organized and disciplined. &quot;The stereotype was that [the black gangs] were all about the [drug] business,&quot; says gang researcher Cheryl Maxson, an associate professor of criminology at University of California, Irvine. With the black gangs, &quot;there was a millionaire in every neighborhood&quot; perched at the top of the crack distribution pyramid, adds gang expert Alex Alonso, who edits <a href="http://www.streetgangs.com/" target="_blank">streetgangs.com</a>.</p>           <p>Now it's the Latino drug gangs that seem tighter and more highly controlled. &quot;The Hispanic gangs like F13 were incredibly regulated, from the street level to the leadership in the prisons,&quot; says Olivia Rosales, a hard-core gangs prosecutor for the L.A. district attorney's office who prosecuted F13 and Crips homicide cases for two years. She now heads one of the DA's satellite offices. &quot;The East Coast Crips weren't as organized.&quot;</p>           <p>Top-down organization in F13 aided the assaults on black gangsters. The federal indictments charge that Mexican mafia leaders &quot;make sure that all the F13 cliques were participating in the assaults of African-American rival gang members.&quot; But the assaults went beyond rival gangs; they &quot;target[ed] African-American individuals for assault,&quot; according to the indictment. Gang leaders even allegedly instructed foot soldiers in how to hunt blacks in the most efficient manner, the feds maintain. A wiretap cited in the RICO indictment reveals that one gang leader allegedly told an underling that &quot;when he went looking for African-Americans to shoot, only a driver and a shooter were needed.&quot;</p><p>The targeting of blacks by the Latino F13 appears to be an anomaly; experts say the majority of <a title="Gang Violence" href="http://www.newsweek.com/related.aspx?subject=Gang+Violence">gang violence</a> still involves a gang member and a victim of the same race. &quot;On average, the violence just isn't race-based,&quot; says UC Irvine criminologist George Tita. &quot;Our studies show there's no pattern of black-brown <a title="Crime" href="http://www.newsweek.com/related.aspx?subject=Crime">crime</a>.&quot; Between 2000 and 2006 black offenders in south Los Angeles were more than seven times more likely to kill black victims, according to a study recently published by Tita and colleagues; Hispanic killers targeted fellow Hispanics twice as often.</p>           <p>But clearly race was a motivating factor for the F13 gang. In one case in the indictment, two Florencia gang members came upon a black couple on Florence Boulevard in September 2005. One shouted &quot;F&mdash; Cheese Toast&quot; (a derogatory name for the East Coast Crips) and ordered the other to shoot the pair. (The feds say the couple weren't affiliated with any gang.) Instead they stole the woman's purse, Assistant U.S. Attorney Peter Hernandez, the case's lead prosecutor, tells NEWSWEEK. An unnamed black victim at a bus stop the month before hadn't been so lucky, Hernandez says. F13 members shot him &quot;three or four times, but he survived.&quot;</p>           <p>The F13 indictment marks the third high-profile Latino gang charged with attacking blacks in the past two years. Last year federal prosecutors won life sentences against four members of the Latino Avenues gang for civil rights violations of blacks they had murdered simply for moving into the gang's Highland Park turf. State prosecutors say the Latino 204th Street gang targeted African-Americans not affiliated with gangs, writing graffiti such as &quot;187 N&mdash;&mdash;&mdash;&quot; (187 is shorthand for &quot;kill&quot;; it's the California penal code section number for homicide). Two 204th Street members face an upcoming trial on state murder charges for the slaying of 14-year-old Cheryl Green, a black teen killed on the street last December.</p>           <!--AD BEGIN--><div class="ad"> <div class="mediumRectangle"> placeAd2(commercialNode,'bigbox',false,'') <!-- Template Id = 1 Template Name = Banner Creative (Flash) --> <!-- Copyright 2002 DoubleClick Inc., All rights reserved. --> &lt;A TARGET=&quot;_new&quot; HREF=&quot;http://ad.doubleclick.net/click%3Bh=v8/3713/3/0/%2a/u%3B205723723%3B2-0%3B0%3B28363761%3B4307-300/250%3B27048058/27065915/1%3B%3B%7Eokv%3D%3Bdir%3Dnews%3Bdir%3Dnation%3Bad%3Dbb%3Bsz%3D300x250%3Bdel%3Djs%3Bajax%3Dn%3Btile%3D3%3Bheavy%3Dn%3BpageId%3Dnewsweek-id-61950-page-2%3Bpoe%3Dno%3B%7Eaopt%3D0/ff/1900ff/ff%3B%7Efdr%3D205749710%3B0-0%3B0%3B17548017%3B4307-300/250%3B27398608/27416487/1%3B%3B%7Eokv%3D%3Bdir%3Dnews%3Bdir%3Dnation%3Bad%3Dbb%3Bsz%3D300x250%3Bdel%3Djs%3Bajax%3Dn%3Btile%3D3%3Bheavy%3Dn%3BpageId%3Dnewsweek-id-61950-page-2%3Bpoe%3Dno%3B%7Eaopt%3D6/1/ff/1%3B%7Esscs%3D%3fhttp://my.barackobama.com/page/content/seml?source=SEM-lb-newsweek&quot;&gt;&lt;IMG SRC=&quot;http://m1.2mdn.net/1476593/big-newopen-300x250.jpg&quot; alt=&quot;Vote for Barack Obama&quot; BORDER=0&gt;&lt;/A&gt;</div></div><!--AD END-->           <p>For all the evidence of race-based targeting of victims, federal prosecutors haven't filed civil rights charges against F13 members, though Hernandez says the idea remains under investigation in the ongoing case. (Hernandez explains that the charges are difficult to prove and wouldn't increase prison time for those convicted of the other charges, anyway.) But law enforcement officials say the F13 members&mdash;and the Crips&mdash;frequently targeted victims based on race. &quot;The way it came out was that any young black man could be the target of [F13] and any young Hispanic man was the target of the [black gang],&quot; says Rosales. &quot;All they see is race.&quot;</p>           <p>L.A. County <a title="Lee Baca" href="http://www.newsweek.com/related.aspx?subject=Lee+Baca">Sheriff Lee Baca</a> tells NEWSWEEK that early wiretaps in the case recorded phone calls in which a senior F13 member ordered a young gang &quot;soldier&quot; to kill a particular East Coast Crip. But when &quot;the soldier called back to say he couldn't find the [Crip], the gang leader told him to shoot any black,&quot; Baca says. &quot;I disagree that it wasn't a hate crime.&quot; In response to the gang war, Baca flooded the Florence-Firestone neighborhood with deputies in 2005, after the area had suffered 41 murders. Last year the number dropped to 19.</p>           <p>             <em>&copy; 2007</em></p><p>&nbsp;</p><h1>She (<span class="underColor" /><span class="underColorGray">Opal Palmer Adisa) </span>was one of my creative writing lecturers;&nbsp;</h1><p><span><span><span><span><span><p>&nbsp;<strong>TALES OF                   A FORGOTTEN GLORY: WEST OAKLAND SENIOR CITIZEN ORAL HISTORY                 PROJECT </strong>                                    </p></span></span></span></span></span></p><p align="right" class="body"><img width="557" height="446" border="0" src="http://www.creativeworkfund.org/pages/bios/images_bios/opal_palmer_adisa3.jpg" /><br />             <em>Cecil Thurston and Elmer McConnell, professional barbers for 40 years,             photograph by Jonathan Eubanks </em> </p>           <span class="underColor">Project Title: <em class="underColorGray">Tales of a Forgotten Glory: West Oakland Senior               Citizen Oral History Project</em><br />             Recipient Organization: </span><span class="underColorGray">The African American Museum and               Library at Oakland</span><span class="underColor"><br />             Lead Artist: </span><span class="underColorGray">Opal Palmer Adisa</span><span class="underColor"><br />             Genre and Date Awarded: </span><span class="underColorGray">Literary             Arts, January 1998</span><span class="underColor"><br />             Premiered: </span><span class="underColorGray">1999 display at the West Oakland Branch             of the Oakland Public Library; 2000-03 exhibition at the African             American Museum and Library in Oakland, California             </span>                     <hr />           <p class="body">As she embarked on this project, writer <strong>Opal               Palmer Adisa</strong> had lived             in West Oakland for seven years and witnessed rapid changes in the             neighborhood. Feeling a strong commitment to area, which is rich             in the history and culture of a working-class African American populace,             she sought to preserve and honor the voices, stories, and images             of 20 of its residents who had lived in the neighborhood for 20 years             or longer.</p>           <p class="body">The project culminated in several forms. Oakland               photographer <strong>Jonathan Eubanks</strong>&mdash;well-known for his documentation of The Black Panther             Party as well as other social movements from Oakland&rsquo;s history&mdash;photographed             the seniors for an exhibition at the African American Museum and             Library. Video producer <strong>Ian Dawkins-Moore</strong> created a 60-minute documentary             using footage from the library&rsquo;s collection, and juxtaposing             West Oakland&rsquo;s past with overlays from the 20 interviews. The             project was delayed somewhat by the need to raise additional funds             to complete the video.</p>           <p class="body">Adisa&rsquo;s process began with an extensive               canvassing of seniors in the neighborhood-through fliers at library               branches; visits to churches, senior centers, and residential homes;               and connections to home-bound seniors through Meals-on-Wheels.               Once her subjects were identified, she held preliminary interviews               with each of them (sometimes conducted by telephone) to establish               a rapport and relationship; and then returned to video or audiotape               an interview session. She and her collaborators encountered the               unanticipated challenge that while many seniors wished to be interviewed,               they did not want to be videotaped or tape recorded. Others were               lonely and eager to tell their stories, but had little connection             to the neighborhood. Ultimately the project featured 46 subjects. </p>           <p class="body">In most instances, the seniors wanted to be interviewed               in their homes and many no longer lived in West Oakland. The artists               drove as far as Stockton to interview Rose Dalton, 101 years old,               who was raised in West Oakland near DeFermery Park and who now               lives with her granddaughter; and to Suisun to interview Marcela               Ford, 90 years old, one of the co-founders of the African American               Museum. Other subjects included Ananis Wills, the first black dry-cleaning               company owner in Oakland; Margaret Wright, called by many &ldquo;the Mayor             of Myrtle Street&rdquo;; dancer and choreographer Ruth Beckford;             labor historian Joe Johnson; barbers Cecil Thurston and Elmer McConnell;             and sisters Mary Jones and Lillian Steward, whose father&rsquo;s             ministry, Beth Eden, is a landmark in the West Oakland Community.</p>           <p class="body">Adisa wrote profiles of the participants&mdash;interweaving their             personal stories with quotations from their interviews. As the project             progressed, she came to realize that her original plan, which had             been to write a biography of each subject, was too ambitious and             would require many more interviews. &ldquo;So instead, what I have             done is to focus on certain highlights in each person&rsquo;s life             and identify that which distinguishes each.&rdquo; </p>           <p class="body">In her final report, Adisa writes of being awed               by the seniors&rsquo; tenacity,             wit, and zeal. She notes, &ldquo;The overriding theme of the interviews             was that West Oakland was an integrated community where everyone             got along. It certainly was not free from racism, which seemed to             rear its ugly head after World War II, but still people for the most             part were allowed to be themselves, despite their race.&rdquo; The             project&rsquo;s title, <em>Tales of a Forgotten Glory</em> came from             an inspiring interview with Joe Johnson. </p>           <p class="body">The African American Museum and Library of Oakland               (AAMLO) addresses the needs of the wider Bay Area African American               community and documents the achievements as well as the ordinary               history of Blacks in the area. The institution was created through               a public-private partnership between the Oakland Public Library               and the Northern California Center for African American History               and Life, which joined forces in 1994 to create AAMLO&mdash;now a division of the public library. AAMLO             holds more than 300 original manuscripts, several oral histories,             more than 8,000 books dealing with Africa-American history and life             in California, and full and partial runs of early black weeklies&mdash;some             dating from the early 1890s. It publishes exhibition catalogues,             posters, calendars and a quarterly newsletter.</p>           <p class="body">During the course of its collaboration with Opal Palmer Adisa, the             library moved from 56th and Peralta to a new site on 14th Street             in downtown Oakland. The photographs and documents from this project             were exhibited at its opening in April 2000 through 2003. The exhibition             will re-open in May 2004 at the Prescot-Joseph Center, 920 Peralta             Street in Oakland. The library collaborated with the artists on the             historical context for the manuscript and video; and it now serves             as the repository for materials developed through the project.</p>           <p class="body">Opal Palmer Adisa is a multi-disciplinary writer, and the author of             numerous poems, the novel <em>It Begins With Tears</em>, and the             performance piece, &ldquo;The Despair Series,&rdquo; which was produced as a video             and was shot in West Oakland. As a resident of West Oakland, she had             come to know many of the neighborhood&rsquo;s seniors. She had collaborated             with photographer Jonathan Eubanks and video producer Ian Dawkins-Moore             on prior projects.</p>           <p align="right" class="body"><img width="557" height="447" border="0" src="http://www.creativeworkfund.org/pages/bios/images_bios/opal_palmer_adisa5.jpg" /><br />             <em>Joseph Johnson, labor historian, photograph by Jonathan Eubanks </em> </p>           <table width="100%" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="0" border="0" bgcolor="#999999">             <tbody><tr>               <td class="headerReverseWhite">LEAD ARTISTS</td>             </tr>           </tbody></table>           <p class="body"><strong>Opal Palmer Adisa</strong></p>           <p class="body"><span class="body">Jamaican born, Opal Palmer Adisa is a literary critic, poet, prose             writer, and storyteller. Her published works are: <em>Caribbean Passion, </em>poetry             (Peepaltree Press, 2004); <em>Leaf-of-Life, </em>poetry (Jukebox Press,             2002); <em>The Tongue is a Drum, </em>CD of poetry and jazz with devorah             major (Irresistible Recordings, 2003); <em>It Begins With Tears, </em>(Heinemann,             1997); <em>Tamarind and Mango Women, </em>winner of the PEN Oakland/Josephine             Miles Award (1992); <em>traveling women</em> (1989); <em>Bake-Face             and Other Guava Stories </em>(1986); and <em>Pina, the Many-Eyed Fruit</em> (1985);             and the recording <em>Fierce/Love</em> with devorah major (1992).</span></p>]]>
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    <title>Love, love, LOve, Love, Love</title>
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    <published>2008-06-28T17:57:47Z</published>
    <updated>2008-06-28T20:49:40Z</updated>
    
    <summary><![CDATA[Why i love him, &nbsp;&nbsp; Yesterday, my boi came to visit as he usually does on a friday; he shared half of his meal with me--i mean the boi brought a burrito all the way from 30th ave east side...]]></summary>
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        <![CDATA[<br /><h1>Why i love him, </h1><p><img width="391" height="500" border="4" align="right" src="http://idlg.net/2612722208_36b93960fa.jpg" alt="Elvis remixed (pencil/pen)" title="Elvis remixed (pencil/pen)" /> &nbsp;&nbsp; Yesterday, my boi came to visit as he usually does on a friday; he shared half of his meal with me--i mean the boi brought a burrito all the way from 30th ave east side to share wit me on 33 st west side.</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; We watched two movies, like <a href="http://movies.yahoo.com/movie/1809833626/info" target="_blank" title="movie">rambo 2008</a> (which was way to graphic for my taste wit the killing and shit..but he kept reassuring me it was just a movie, and not to take it so seriously) and <a href="http://movies.yahoo.com/movie/1809833630/info" target="_blank" title="movie">untraceable</a> side by side on the floor, almost spooning;</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; He smoked me out, as he usually does on fridays when he has the weed; he even reached out and touched me and said, 'not to worry elvis is here' when i told him how much i had fiend for weed the night before..but this morning i got up to go to work and my boi had set aside a bit of weed for me to have this morning.</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; he spends the night with me and always gets up wit me in the morning to talk and hang out before i have to go to work.</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; He shares his last cigarettes with me; &nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; he wants to be in my company and share with me his thoughts and feelings about most things, people and places;</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; he wants to go on adventures with me, even if that is just a trip across the bay bridge to SF.</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; He like the idea of being my muse; and dosen't mind if I constantly draw him, or even ask him to pose for me (though right now, he seems mainly comfortable with me just drawing his face--we are working up to more full body poses..)</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; we have become more physically affectionate cause now we touch each other a little more and with less and less reservation.</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; He thinks of my needs, cause the other day I told him how i was struggling with my cummuter funds for getting to work and back; and he came up wit a <a href="http://www.bart.gov/index.asp" target="_blank" title="transit SF bay">BART</a>&nbsp; ticket that would get me to the end of the month and a bit further.&nbsp; Told me in fact, when the ticket was offered to him, he snatched it up cause he knew I could use it.</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp; he enjoys cooking for  himself and I; and when I have food in the house he is no stranger to preparing, cooking and serving the food; he is also thoughtful enough to clean up the kitchen.&nbsp; I have come to my place many-a-day and he had cleaned up the kitchen even though he hadn't made any of the mess.</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; He enjoys my friends and engages them socially; the other night he got all the guys to play 5&nbsp; hands of the bones, daminoes; quite the feat when you consider that neither randy or ryan typically play the bones;</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;  He is funny; and sweet; </p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;  he is sensual and innocent;</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;  he is open and honest;</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;  he is loyal and dependent;</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;  a true friend; a real buddy.</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;  such a great boi, my moneys on him to be a great <strong>man/lover </strong>for some one in the future.</p><p>&nbsp;<img width="240" height="125" border="4" align="absmiddle" title="elvis diptych" alt="elvis diptych" src="http://idlg.net/2594568570_4b4dba322e_m.jpg" /></p><h1>I could go on and on about elvis..</h1><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; i definitly needed to say the things that I have said above; </p><p><img width="326" height="436" border="2" align="left" title="Butt mag cover" alt="Butt mag cover" src="http://idlg.net/2539992915_8bc27e9a70.jpg" />&nbsp;</p><h3>&nbsp;this little work sort of combines a couple of things on my mind these days; </h3><h3>my shopping cart series, and <a title="Butt Mag" target="_blank" href="http://www.buttmagazine.com/">Butt Magazine</a>..why?</h3><h3>well you could say i find it the men's magazine of choice for the queer male, and i have to admit it is not too bad, esp., when it come to men of color too.&nbsp; Now don't get me wrong, it is mostly white cats, but they do manage to include some brothers from time to time.</h3><h3>the drawing is a readers self pic submitted to the mag, and i couldn't resist cause of the skateboard; i've a sweet interest in skater punks, esp, the queer ones.</h3><h3>&nbsp;</h3><h3>&nbsp;</h3><h3>&nbsp;</h3><h3>&nbsp;<img width="216" height="310" border="4" align="right" title="shopping kart series" alt="shopping kart series" src="http://idlg.net/2496678538_f9aa639e74_o.jpg" /><br /></h3><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; as my birthday month comes to a close, i've really got not much to talk about; i'm hungry as hell, since I've exhusted all funds and really i've only got beans left in my house.&nbsp; boi, that tuff..</p><p>wit regards to my shopping kart theme,</p><p>i know i'm not the only one focusing on this subject matter, </p><p>see also,</p><p><strong><a target="_blank" href="http://nesting-instincts.blogspot.com/2008/04/fridays-fabulous-finds-oh-so-feminine.html">nesting-instincts.blogspot.com/2008/04/friday...</a></strong></p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>http:the art terroist, Banksy, whom i have great respect, esp., cause he too..</p><p><a href="http://www.banksy.co.uk/indoors/hunters.html" target="_blank">http://www.banksy.co.uk/indoors/hunters.html&nbsp;</a></p><p><a href="http://www.banksy.co.uk/indoors/01.html" target="_blank">http://www.banksy.co.uk/indoors/01.html</a></p><p><a href="http://news.sky.com/skynews/article/0,,30100-13351236,00.html" target="_blank">http://news.sky.com/skynews/article/0,,30100-13351236,00.html</a></p><p>&nbsp;</p><p><img width="150" height="223" border="2" src="http://idlg.net/my_mom_is_shopping_by_Mistress_gothca.jpg" alt="mistress gotcha" title="mistress gotcha" />&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; by Mistress gotcha; </p><p>oh, boi, there are so many of us on the same wave lenght;</p><p><a href="http://www.strayshoppingcart.com/" target="_blank" title="Julian Montague">http://www.strayshoppingcart.com/</a></p><p><span style="text-decoration: underline">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </span><br /></p><div align="justify">just a bit from the web site about her project; which i think is so kwel; </div><div align="justify">&nbsp;</div><span class="style7">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &quot;Over the                   last several decades, the stray shopping cart has quietly become                   an integral part of the urban and suburban landscapes of the                   industrialized world. To the average person, the stray shopping                   cart is most often thought of as a signifier of urban blight                   or as an indicator of a consumer society gone too far. Unfortunately,                   the acceptance of these oversimplified designations has discouraged                   any serious examination of the stray shopping cart phenomenon. </span> <div style="text-align: justify">               </div><p class="style7" style="text-align: justify">Until now, the major obstacle                 that has prevented people from thinking critically about stray                 shopping carts has been that we have not had any formalized language                 to differentiate one shopping cart from another.&quot;</p><p class="style7" style="text-align: justify">&nbsp;<img width="266" height="400" border="2" align="right" title="shopping kart art by chad ramsey" alt="shopping kart art by chad ramsey" src="http://idlg.net/scabyChad_Ramsey.jpg" /></p><p class="style7" style="text-align: justify">&nbsp;or how about Chris Bruch in a very intersting project; this is the first i have ever heard of this cat..quote</p><p class="style7" style="text-align: justify">&quot;In Seattle, the master of shopping carts is <a title="kwel" target="_blank" href="http://www.lawrimoreproject.com/crisbruch.html">Cris Bruch</a><a title="kwel" target="_blank" href="http://www.lawrimoreproject.com/crisbruch.html">,</a> who holds the title even though he's done nothing with them since the 1980s. In his shaggy youth, he liked to push his fantastically overloaded &quot;Roller Roaster&quot; through downtown. When he felt like it, he'd stop to light the coals and roast onions he'd give or barter away.&quot;</p><p class="style7" style="text-align: justify"><img width="271" height="188" border="2" align="left" title="chris Bruch" alt="chris Bruch" src="http://idlg.net/3.-Cris-Bruch.jpg" />&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p>]]>
        
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    <title>post my 53rd birthday</title>
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    <published>2008-06-25T23:38:18Z</published>
    <updated>2008-06-26T03:48:09Z</updated>
    
    <summary><![CDATA[links, u can trust..?In Search Of A Black Gay MeccadonaldOSW: Summer Solstice '08EJ flavors&nbsp;JOSH!corey sparks ( i don't know why i find this white boi kwel, maybe cause he has hell'a black friends, least it seems so..)&nbsp;&nbsp;o.k., this is not...]]></summary>
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        <![CDATA[<h1>links, </h1><h1>u can trust..?</h1><h1 class="asset-name entry-title">In Search Of A Black Gay Mecca</h1><p><a title="the man" target="_blank" href="http://now.anzidesign.com/2008/05/in-search-of-a#more">donald</a><br /></p><h2 class="asset-name"><a href="http://ejflavors.com/archives/2008/06/osw-solstice-08/">OSW: Summer Solstice '08</a></h2><p><a title="the man and the music" href="http://ejflavors.com/ ">EJ flavors</a></p><p>&nbsp;</p><h3 class="entry-header"><a href="http://coreyspears.typepad.com/blog/2008/06/josh.html">JOSH!</a></h3><h3 class="entry-header"><a title="the white man" target="_blank" href="http://coreyspears.typepad.com/">corey sparks </a>( i don't know why i find this white boi kwel, maybe cause he has hell'a black friends, least it seems so..)&nbsp;</h3><h3 class="entry-header">&nbsp;</h3><h3 class="entry-header">o.k., this is not moving today, </h3><h3 class="entry-header">how about some art..yes art..</h3><h3 class="entry-header">&nbsp;</h3><h3 class="entry-header"><img width="428" height="321" border="4" align="middle" title="3D Kart" alt="3D Kart" src="http://idlg.net/2555353568_c5779a4cfc_b.jpg" /><br />&nbsp;the Shopping Kart series, this one is part 2 of a triptych; I hope to hang in a fellow office mates office..</h3><h3 class="entry-header">perhaps you would like to see part 1 of this same triptych; o.k.;</h3><h3 class="entry-header"><img width="381" height="336" border="4" align="right" title="pt.1" alt="pt.1" src="http://idlg.net/2538074733_26fbb4478c_o.jpg" />&nbsp;</h3><p>&nbsp;</p><h2>&nbsp;</h2><h2>&nbsp;</h2><h2>&nbsp;</h2><h2>&nbsp;</h2><h2>&nbsp;</h2><h2>&nbsp;</h2><h2>&nbsp;</h2><h2>&nbsp;</h2><h2>&nbsp;</h2><h2>&nbsp;oh, yeah, </h2><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; i was trying to provide some useful links, see the thing is i generally keep bookmarks, like most folks, then they stack up, cause i never get a chance to get back to them; well in these links, since they are bookmarked at work, yeah, i like check on them all the time..so i kinda recommend these links, in good faith, sort of speak..</p><p><span style="font-weight: bold"><a title="Closing down" target="_blank" href="http://istanbulcasual.typepad.com/">Casual in Instanbul </a>&nbsp;</span> is saying goodbye, and for white to light brown eye candy, that's too bad; </p><p>mind you i don't think it is my taste, so much as a reference; since as you may or may not know about me is that I typically only draw the male figure.</p><p>and race don't matter at that point, beauty is beauty;</p><h1><a title="serving " target="_blank" href="http://glas.org/ahbab/">      	Ahbab News </a></h1><h3>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; the real deal is the three other links,&nbsp; like <a target="_blank" href="http://queerarab.blogspot.com/">Rantings Of Angry Sarcastic Bitchy Queer Arab Americans </a></h3><h3>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; or&nbsp; <strong><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'">كاهنان مثليا الجنس يعقدان قرانهما بأكبر&nbsp; </span></strong></h3><h3>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;  <a target="_blank" href="http://www.helem.net/"><strong><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'" /></strong></a><span style="font-size: 11pt; font-family: 'Tahoma','sans-serif'"><strong>كنيسة في لندن</strong></span><br />&nbsp;</h3> <h4>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  I have no idea what the above says;</h4><h4>however </h4><h4>     <strong><a target="_blank" href="http://www.gaymiddleeast.com/">GME's&nbsp;5th      Birthday</a></strong></h4><h4>     <strong>May 2003 - May 2008&nbsp; ; o.k., enough on the arab queer world; though I do wonder about cast and color issues in the queer world of arabs; like does it matter, is there a fetish on darker color or birth place and such..</strong></h4><h4>stuff these sites don't really talk about; in essence these sites really only talk to and for other arabs, and don't really bring other queers of color into the fold..per say..&nbsp;</h4><h1>&nbsp; i heart <a href="http://claycane.blogspot.com/" target="_blank" title="negro (not gay)">Clay Cane</a>..&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  <img width="480" height="318" border="4" src="http://idlg.net/2575671183_abc24e2ee7_o.jpg" alt="village" title="village" /></h1><h1>&nbsp;speaking of celebrity cult shit.. i heart <a href="http://www.crunktastical.net/" target="_blank" title="Loud negro (not gay)">crunk and disordly</a> too..&nbsp;</h1><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; not that any of what either has to say means that much to me, but the pages are bright and colorfull and sometimes funny as hell.</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; i really like this guy, who is gay, but that is not the reason i read his blog, wait, yes it is..</p><h3>so what;<a href="http://notshady.blogspot.com/" target="_blank" title="kwel cat"> Not shady, just fierce</a> is just that.&nbsp;</h3><h2>&nbsp;</h2><h2>&nbsp;</h2><h2>&nbsp;</h2>]]>
        
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    <title>these days of wine and roses</title>
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    <published>2008-05-19T19:41:40Z</published>
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    <summary>Meaning to catch up wit myself____________ this is one of my latest images of boi wonder, Elvis; he&apos;s watching TV on a hot day in May at my place; we probably just smoked a bit of weed (blunt); I used...</summary>
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        <![CDATA[<h1>Meaning to catch up wit myself____________</h1><p><a title="flickr.com" target="_blank" href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/idlg/2503373817/"><img width="198" height="325" border="0" align="left" src="http://idlg.net/blogg_images/2508326469_70ed35c100_b.jpg" /></a> this is one of my latest images of boi wonder, Elvis; he's watching TV on a hot day in May at my place; we probably just smoked a bit of weed (blunt); </p><p>I used this one to include him in a new series &quot;<a title="Shopping Cart" target="_blank" href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/idlg/sets/72157604999371278/">Shopping Carts</a>&quot; I've been posting on my flickr.com site.&nbsp;</p><p>The shopping cart is an extended methaphor of 'freedom' for me as regards the consumerism of our culture; in essence I belive we all carry around a shopping cart kind of mentality__to quote <a title="review" target="_blank" href="http://www.bigyawn.net/cdreview.php?id=744">Soul Position</a> &quot;  Homeless people think they free, I think it's funny.. Cause freedom is a joke when everything costs money &quot;<a title="Lyrics" target="_blank" href="http://www.lyricsdir.com/soul-position-im-free-lyrics.html">*</a>; like the way we use to say 'bag'&nbsp; e.g., 'what's yo bag, man' or 'that is your baggage, bro', I have extended this to include the shopping cart;&nbsp; As individuals we are always shopping, and throwing both needed and useless 'things' into our shopping cart, assuming we can cover them at the time of our 'check out'.&nbsp; We also haul around a lot of consumer desire and/or consumed things which we assume gives us some sort of <br /> </p><p>status.&nbsp; I&nbsp; don't think our carts are necessarily visible to each other,&nbsp;&nbsp; i guess it <img width="304" height="399" border="0" align="right" title="shopping cart" alt="shopping cart" src="http://idlg.net/blogg_images/2496678538_d1bc3cd1ae_b.jpg" /></p><p>depends on just how preceptive you are about peoples.&nbsp; I seem to think we can see through each other.&nbsp; I don't think people are all that original and if you study them hard enough you start to see the same things in many people.&nbsp; The shopping cart seems to reference people to me; esp., after watch the many cart people in my hood, of which i am speaking the people whom use them as homes and vehicles for hauling; I've seen many variations of 'pimping' out their carts, which seem to match the same ways that the more fortunate pimp out their cars, houses, and themselves.&nbsp; &quot; <a title="Soul Position mySpace" target="_blank" href="http://www.myspace.com/soulposition">Freedom in America</a>, is all about consumption<br /> You ain't free unless you get out there and buy somethin<br /> More spendin, more taxes<br /> More money for our military actions.&quot;&nbsp; <br /></p><p>Jean Michael Basquait probably had an insight on this visual image sooner than I have though I don't recall seeing anything in his works; but like my <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/idlg/sets/72157600174242041/" target="_blank" title="reggaton poster series">mexican poster series</a>,&nbsp; he too did a number of works on found street advertisment, boxing posters.</p><p><a href="http://www.gagosian.com/artists/jean-michel-basquiat/exhibitions/" target="_blank" title="gallery"><img width="241" height="196" border="0" align="left" src="http://idlg.net/blogg_images/JMBasquiat1982.jpg" alt="Jean Michael Basquiat" title="Jean Michael Basquiat" /></a> &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;  I am so proud to be channeling MJB; since he is an idol of mine.&nbsp; I wish I had met him.&nbsp; O.k., all of a sudden I have forgotten the motivation for my blogging today.&nbsp; I am not even sure I had a base reason for posting what I am posting other than too much free time.&nbsp; Truth be told, I am at work while i put these pages into affect.&nbsp; Recently I have taken to 'downloading' music files; suffice to say, I on occassion feel guilty about my behavior.&nbsp; So, a couple of things are gonna come out of this behavior; One, I will make greater effort to give actual review of some of the music I am listening;&nbsp; and secondly, I will give greater effort at just mentioning the artist I am so fond towards.&nbsp; </p><p>My latest, artist of choice is this HOJ, or <a href="http://www.thejustusleague.com/" target="_blank" title="Hall of Justus">Justus league</a> players, like Little Brother.</p><h3 class="post-title entry-title"><a href="http://bigpoohandphonte.blogspot.com/2008/02/music-little-brother-getback-army.html" target="_blank" title="Big Pooh">Music: Little Brother - &quot;Getback Army&quot;</a><a href="http://bigpoohandphonte.blogspot.com/2008/02/music-little-brother-getback-army.html" target="_blank" title="Big Pooh">&nbsp;&nbsp;</a> </h3><p>&nbsp;Big Pooh, another of the league, provided this rather excellent 4 disc mix set of little brother and many others, of which I am more than anxious to get home and listen;&nbsp; Hell, let me go get my little ear plugs so that I can take a listen while i am here.&nbsp; I mean I only had to look at the play list for cd 1 to know I had to find and listen to this mix;</p><h3>No way I could sleep on a list like this..no way..&nbsp;</h3><p>01 Rapper Big Pooh - &quot;Interview On Fiasco Fam Radio&quot; (feat. KayCee)<br />02 Little Brother - &quot;Cool As A Fan&quot;<br />03 Phonte - &quot;Yellow Lines&quot; (feat. Cunninlynguists &amp; Witchdoctor)<br />04 Rapper Big Pooh - &quot;Plastic Cups&quot; (feat. Joe Scudda &amp; Chaundon)<br />05 Little Brother - &quot;Step Off&quot;<br />06 Phonte - &quot;Think Good Thoughts&quot; (feat. 9th Wonder &amp; Drake)<br />07 Little Brother - &quot;No Time To Chill&quot; (feat. 9th Wonder)<br />08 Carlitta Durand - &quot;What If&quot;<br />09 Phonte - &quot;Africa&quot; (feat. Zo)<img width="300" height="199" border="0" align="right" title="little brother &amp; big pooh?" alt="little brother &amp; big pooh?" src="http://idlg.net/blogg_images/littlebrother.jpg" /><br />10 Rapper Big Pooh - &quot;What Makes A Man&quot; (feat. 9th Wonder &amp; Buddy Klein)<br />11 Little Brother - &quot;Honey Remix&quot; (feat. Erykah Badu &amp; Wall Sparks)<br />12 Phonte - &quot;Dillagence&quot; (feat. DJ Spinna)<br />13 Little Brother - &quot;Lose It&quot; (feat. Jozeemo)<br />14 Rapper Big Pooh - &quot;Respect It&quot; (feat. Illa J &amp; Bishop Lamont)<br />15 Phonte - &quot;Letyourselfgo&quot; (feat. Evidence &amp; Alchemist)<br />16 Carlitta Durand - &quot;Her&quot;<br />17 Little Brother - &quot;Whatever U Want&quot; (feat. DJ Jazzy Jeff)<br />18 Phonte - &quot;Paper Chaser&quot; (feat. Playaz Circle)</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;You need to go there to see how much more is there for FREE.&nbsp; I think these are some rather down to earth brothers..(least from this distance, cause you know some bloods look (idealogy wise) better from a distance than up close.)&nbsp; I mean, i'm like really into hip hop but a lot of hip hop players are rather homo phobic..of which i see no reason for being so, anyhow; i might be really digging a cat productions and poetry, then he goes and makes a rather homo phobic remark that kind'a set the politics clear to me..in other words, the same ole shit just packaged differently;</p><p>Another player i've been checking out.who is associated with HOJ peeps. <a title="sykzoo interview" target="_blank" href="http://www.nobodysmiling.com/hiphop/interview/87087.php">Skyzoo</a>, so far he seems knowledgeable, and sensitive, but I won't be surprise if he comes off homo phobic..in some public context at some point.&nbsp; If any'ting, I will simply walk away from this player and all associated players..</p><p>I check out '<a title="amazon.com" target="_blank" href="http://www.amazon.com/Present-Cloud-Day-High-Skyzoo/dp/B000HOJEPG">Cloud 9 the three day high</a>' and found it easy enough to get into; after about 3 plays I realized it lacked real depth of thought, but flows easy.&nbsp; I need to give it a closer listen to write an honest review. esp., since i won't be about comparing him to anybody.&nbsp; <br /></p><p>&nbsp;another cat i just noticed is <a href="http://cesarcomanche.8m.com/" target="_blank" title="HOJ">CEsar Comanche </a></p><p>&nbsp;can't say much about him since I need to get into his music first; You know I don't really care about these players public life.; I am only into the music and the voice that music brings into my world.&nbsp;&nbsp; So let me give him a proper listen and I will get back with you on what the what is for me.</p><p>&nbsp;</p><h2>&nbsp;yo, bit torrents music file sharing has increased my 'experience (knowledge)base' by three fold, of both what has been and what is currently happening in music (esp. the music of hip hop, alternative, house, soul and jazz)</h2><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; I'm not just listening to more music, but I am aware of more music and or the artist that produce and make music__see, where I'm going with this? the thing with access to torrents is that if you have material to hold, store and play the stuff you find; you will find so much more than you could haver ever 'retail consumed' in the same period of time;&nbsp; In all honesty I doubt I could ever afford the physical space required to house my mp3 collection where they actually CD or vinyl; Likewise&nbsp; I could care less about the 'moral' of skipping over the retail (least the market place retail, cause I still gotta pay for the equipment I use, and the internet acess that I do have, yeah, boi on the monthly) but, I'm more focused on how the experience has advanced my musical appreciation; I'll be clear to admit that much of the music i've been collecting is far from the most current, esp., with the hip hop; i mean, i am just now 'catching up' with the last (easy) 10 years of hip hop.&nbsp; I simply could never have afforded the retail value of these albums even if I wanted; I mean the side bars are equally fantastic, in that i'm 52 years old and experienced the film 'Coffy' for the first time last nite wit my 17 year old mexican smoking buddy, thanks to a bit torrent file of the movie; true the film is on Netflix and available thru Amazon but that is at least a $10.90 cost plus (i.e., shipping and handling in the Amazon case and or subscription cost in the netflix case).&nbsp; <br /></p><p>I'm thinking bit torrent music file sharing has enhanced and increased my music knowledgebase (definitly cost wise) in the same way <a href="http://www.tunecore.com/" target="_blank" title="TuneCore">TuneCore</a> (and it's <a title="Jeff Price" target="_blank" href="http://www.huffingtonpost.com/jeff-price/the-democratization-of-th_b_93065.html">founder</a> which is not a bit_torrent, so much as a cheaper access like<a href="http://www.emusic.com/" target="_blank" title="eMusic"> eMusic</a> then say a store like Virgins or the now defunkt Towers..) has provided musician seeking independence from labels and such an internet platform at almost no cost.</p><p>&quot;Taken together these new ways of making and sharing culture could have broad ramifications on the fundamental relations between production and consumption and on the traditional sources of authority for culture and knowledge. We are beginning to imagine how amateurs, file-sharers, and bloggers, by reshaping long-established standards of production and consumption, could fundamentally challenge existing institutional and professional authority. We are today barely seeing the first glimmerings of what a fully networked public culture might look like. Despite persistent pundit predictions of imminent doom for established content industries, or conversely, of the squelching of common culture by the iron fist of corporate power, the future of public culture seems to us very much up for grabs. We are still at the start of the trajectory of social, cultural, and technical change in the network era. Our goal in this chapter therefore is not to declare the forms of networked culture we describe as fait accompli, as inevitable forms of culture and media. Rather, we have specifically selected cases that suggest emergent and radical changes, but which are also sites of contestation very much subject to the forces of government regulation, technological engineering, and corporate maneuvering. The power of networked, viral, and laterally organized Internet groups is just one of many forces contesting these futures, but it is a newly energized player and the one we focus on in the cases of amateur music, <em>anime</em> fandom, viral marketing, and online news.&quot;<br /></p><p>&nbsp;see also: </p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;<a target="_blank" href="http://networkedpublics.org/book/culture">  Networked Publics</a><br /></p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp; <a href="http://torrentfreak.com/japanese-isps-agree-to-ban-pirates-from-internet-080315/" target="_blank" title="bib.">TorrentFreaks</a></p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  <a href="http://www.warsystems.hu/?cat=15" target="_blank" title="bib.">WarSystems</a></p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  &nbsp;&nbsp;  <a href="http://www.wired.com/entertainment/music/magazine/16-01/ff_yorke?currentPage=all" target="_blank" title="bib">Wired</a><br /><br />&nbsp;</p>]]>
        
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        <![CDATA[<p>The difference is clear, movabletype is simpler in PC window than this Mac window I am currently working; Mac requires much more immediate html code knowledge than the pc window: before I go on..i must hip you to <a href="http://www.kaluplinzy.com">Kalup Linzy</a> at..http://www.kaluplinzy.com; u best go to youtube to really get a feel.. bro is brilliant, and funny heck'a funny..</p><p><img width="488" height="390" border="0" align="left" src="http://idlg.net/outDaDoor2workToday.jpg" /></p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;</p><h1>to start again;</h1><h3 align="right">my podomatic link at the heading of this site, is once again an active link; in that I* am making a greater effort to place mixes there.&nbsp; Seems I am most inspired every year around this time, i.e. May thru July; my muse wit music is all about the sharing, even if that is suggestively poor quality mixing.</h3><h3 align="left"><img width="363" height="500" border="0" align="left" title="the crimeIV" alt="the crimeIV" src="http://idlg.net/the_crime_iv.jpg" />speaking of music,&nbsp;</h3><h3 align="left">i got caught talking about my past and the music that I can no longer listen to without going there, and <a title="the orb" target="_blank" href="http://www.theorb.com/">The Orb</a> came to mind, right along with <a href="http://www.moon-palace.de/" target="_blank" title="tricky">tricky</a>, (whom's 'vulnerable in 2003 was kind'a the last i picked up from him..&gt;<strong> &lsquo;Vulnerable&rsquo; is an eclectic mash of downbeat claustrophobia, beauty, visceral guitar crunching pained laments propelled by economic beats, and upbeat Garbage-esque bouncers. &lt;</strong> (Burn It Blue, May 2003)</h3><h3 align="left"><strong>&lt;&quot;I called this album Vulnerable because it's my most honest and open record. On this album I've stopped hiding and I'm allowing people to see different sides of the real me.&quot; &lt;</strong> (official bio)</h3><h3 align="left"> and <a href="http://www.alec-empire.com/" target="_blank" title="alec">Alec Empire</a>; Alec's latest is &quot;The Golden Foretaste Of <a href="http://www.discogs.com/sell/list?release_id=1160879&amp;ev=r2" target="_blank" title="for sale">Heaven</a>&quot;</h3><h3 align="left"><a title="Myspace the orb" target="_blank" href="http://www.myspace.com/orbisms">The Orb</a>, have or had a new release in 2007 called </h3><h3 align="left"><a href="http://www.amazon.co.uk/Dream-Orb/dp/B0010NX2K6" target="_blank" title="Amazon.com">The dream</a>; and here is a single off that album from me to you, <a href="http://idlg.net/PhantomofUkraine.mp3" target="_blank" title="single">Phantom of Ukraine</a></h3><h3 align="left">&nbsp;thing is, to me, they sound just like they did in the 1990's with most of their stuff__which at first given the amount of pot I smoke(d); i thought was really kwel, nice spacey stuff that let my mind wander; after a few listens and the eventual breakup with my boi friend of the time} who more or less introduced me to the sounds of the orb with AUNTIE AUBREYS EXCURSIONS BEYOND THE CALL OF DUTY (The Orb Remix Project-- JUL, 1996)_</h3> <h3 align="left">which we wore out in CD form, eventually found in LP format, of which I kept just to spite him; to eventually resell since I could not stand listening to the crap__(because of him..u know);</h3><h3>ORBUS TERRARUM -- MAR, 1995 &amp; POMME FRITZ (The Orb's Little Album) -- JUN, 1994} ;&nbsp; I'm working on re claiming some of their music cause on a sunny summer afternoon, when i've smoked the good purple, or bubble-gum, the Orb sound nice and dreamy (if a only a bit repetitive--and I don't think about him anymore.)</h3><h3 align="left">If you want to know, they are the following :</h3><h3 align="left">                       ORBSCURE TRAX -- APR, 1997</h3><h3 align="left">AUBREY MIXES (The Ultraworld Excursions) -- DEC, 1991</h3><h3 align="left">The Orb vs Meat Beat Manifesto&nbsp;</h3><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; O.k., I've been bad; yes, </p><p>&nbsp;I have been all over <a title="torrent search engine" target="_blank" href="http://scrapetorrent.com/">scrapetorrent.com</a> i should say looking; but i'm not just looking;</p><p>using either <a title="multi-platform BitTorrent client" target="_blank" href="http://www.transmissionbt.com/">Transmission</a> or <a title="bit client" target="_blank" href="http://www.versiontracker.com/dyn/moreinfo/macosx/25850&amp;vid=247228">BitonWheels</a>, I've been bad. Both of which are a fast, easy, and free multi-platform BitTorrent client with a focus on being lightweight yet feature-filled.</p><p>Now, I tried to tell a buddy, that I don't do this that often, which is like telling a buddy, I don't jackoff too often; when in fact I do at least twice a day, AM and PM; likewise with bit torrents; I got a definite bug, and find that as much as I love music, I can not afford to keep up with the sheer volume of music I am interested in hearing or playing (since that is two different activities for me..yup)</p><h2>Anyhow,</h2><p>&nbsp;Since I've been gaining a number of MP3 files that I'm definitly gonna have a hard time finding (and or purchasing) in vinyl, I am at least looking into MP3 players wit my mixing deck..<br /></p><h5>&nbsp;</h5><p align="right">&nbsp;</p><p>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; </p><p>   </p>]]>
        
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