musical experiencespineapple, pie, milk and water
academic geeks & mondays (always get me down);
I continue to long:
for what exactly, seems to be ever changing; mostly items of or specific to netbooks, bikes, books, and music; then comes drugs and sex neither of which actually gets my full attention; i.e., i only smoke a limited amount of pot and my sex life is cuming in my hand.
but i think i have another
I think I'm flirting with him; but he may just see me as being friendly;
He is part of the catering staff for an event going on in the library; i've seen him before, and we always smile at each other; i think he is sexy as hell, cann't tell for sure if he is Filipino or Chinese, in either case, he's hot. Seems like he might be at least in his early 30's not sure about that either. I plan to go to this event, at first to eat..but now i want to chat this cat up; i tried to chat him up just now at the elelavator but he didn't really feel my drift or he was thinking about work, for sure, i can understand; i mean he is catering;
So, I want to the little affair, and yeah, the food was good, but Ray (i think that was what he said is his name) was better; i could watch him move around the room all night, esp., in them black slacks that didn't cling to his body, but definitely showed off his ass; He has a clown like smile and sunny like disposition but that may all be work related; seems like i could see gray hair on that head so again i know he's not some young pup.
thinking too hard about this matter won't be good for me; this image above is part of a larger painting i gave to my man Joesph; if u look real hard you can see two tongues tip to tip; right now it expresses my unrequited desire, if desire can be such a thing..
been so long, i've forgotten how;
Why i'm almost exclusively attracted to the working joe type of guy must say something about me as a guy; Since my dad was basically a working joe (for the army) i may be after what I believe my dad embodied. Do i think such a man can be trusted or is more likely a 'real' man; Do i think that labor imbues a quality of male unlike the office worker or politican; Now my minds all a flutter with just the idea that he could even possibly be attracted to me , i get too caught up and this is like a sugar rush, great going up, horrible coming down.
What makes a man attractive (2 me);
i suppose a combination of things, all of which start with a disposition, esp., one that is smiling and friendly; Secondly in the arena of physical qualities, i think both a rugged masculine with some soft edges; then i think of color; i am drawn to men who are fairly golden brown to black; I am also attracted to body hair, both on the face and hopefully the low part of his body, as in legs and ass;
i suppose his walk and the physical manner in which he carries himself; a man who walks with the full knowledge that his body is an object of observation and he almost encourages such observation. 
