musical experiencesjoining groups and tings..
we all want to belong (to some'ting): 
since i spend a bit of time searching the internet for inspiration, like estefano to our right; i thought I should give a few links back..; I never think that the links i explore are not common to most people; but u know that is just a poor assumption of most people's search skills.
African boyz, which i may have given already is a membership site, with a small monthly fee. If you find black men as beautiful as i do you will enjoy this site, though most of the guys appear to be west african in my assumption.
As you may recall, i have thing about too much vanillia on the queer internet sites like blogs and news services; so i've been making an effort to keep up my book marks for all things black..and i will continue to make an effort to post most of them here; bear with me, when i repeat myself..sorry__
a few parties..that i think are regular gigs..with us west coast folks..and i guess the dirty south..since them children know how best to get out..; anyhow..Club Rim Shot.. they got a spring break party coming up in Palm Spring, damn, i waited too long to book my hotel, and now they are all sold out.. and this gig is happening right with my birthday week.. June 22 thru June 25, 2007..damn, damn, damn..every since i missed the first ATB..party..i've been hoping to make one of these events..
they have a busy myspace page too; check it out for pics from previous events--that way you can see what i mean for yo damn self..The 19th Annual At the Beach Los Angeles Black Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, and Transgender Pride Celebration is going down July 3-8, 2007. The Beach Party Unity Celebration will take place on Saturday, July 7, 2007.
In the summer of 1988, Duane Bremond and a group of friends decided to come together to organize and enjoy a day "At the Beach" on the 4th of July. Every year since, At the Beach (ATB) has grown in participants and in scope. It has become the nation's largest recognized Black lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgender pride celebration.
Today, ATB is a progressive and socially responsible organization over 20,00 strong.
Some times you just have to keep following the links, to discover more and more black on black kind'a stuff via the internet..of course i'm talking about queer..folks..don't be 'shamed' of the word or the life..anyhow..i've not seen Clique Magazine..but i've never seen 'Krave' either
now Krave is probably marketed to straight black bois an
d men, however, just a glance at they covers..and my gaydar hit the roof of my brain..maybe it's just me..but i don't think so..esp. wit the cover looking good with Atwood from Noah's Ark series (now dead in the warters of cable tv); I'm sorry, but i'm not a fan of Noah's ark, and i wouldn't have been bloods fan either had i not at least tried to stomach the first season on DVD, doubt i'll be rushing to see the next season anyway soon..i guess it works for some young uban b boys but for me the characters where a bit too 'stupid' queer..and i didn't really care about their drama..not really;
by the way, speaking of Noah's Ark..
BOY CULTURE (bear in mind people, this is a straight actor-Derek Magyar--playing a queer character) also
Starring Darryl Stephens of " Noah's Arc."
In Boy Culture, a successful male escort describes in a series of confessions his tangled romantic relationships with his two roommates and an older, enigmatic male client.
In his fifth feature film release, Darryl Stephens (Noah of Noah’s Arc) doesn’t disappoint flesh seekers, he is once again found oiled and shirtless--this time soaping it up in the shower while his voyeuristic roommate watches. Stephens plays a character who falls somewhere between homo-thug and gentle soul. In “Boy Culture” he is ‘Andrew’, a gay bachelor who is spreading his casual love around and sharing a lofty apartment with the arrogant and emotionally guarded high-dollar male escort ‘X’ (Derek Magyar), and the on again--off again student/femme club kid Joey (Jonathon Trent). The movie focuses primarily on Magyar’s character ‘X’ as a hustler, but complications rise when Andrew and X visit X’s parents during the holidays. They both reluctantly realize, with X more reluctant than Andrew, that they want more from each other than just friendship. Joey falls somewhere in between, tirelessly trying to seduce X, while X sees himself more as a mentor to Joey.
.. caught this film at Memphis’ Outflix Film Festival, and had hoped for more screen time dedicated to Stephens and Magyar together. You might be more than just a little annoyed with virtual unknown Derek Magyar, who comes off as unpleasant and icy in this role. I wondered if the character was written that way, or if Magyar’s true personality bled over into X’s. Even more disappointing is Stephens’ second string status to Magyar’s in the film, especially for those accustomed to his leading role as ‘Noah’. In one scene Andrew is dealt an emotional blow, his easygoing demeanor visibly shaken by X’s cutting words. If you can get past watching Darryl Stephens chase after a straight acting gay boy, you’ll find yourself enjoying the film. Despite the fact that the characters were a bit undeveloped and that Darryl Stephens’ screen time comes up a bit short, it’s definitely worthwhile. For a list of select city openings visit: www.boy-culture.com
The film will be released on DVD by TLA Releasing.
Whereas Advocate had some other opinion about Mr Magyar's performance; Without turning into treacle, Boy Culture thoughtfully examines the gay male struggle with intimacy. Much of the film’s realism is thanks to actor Derek Magyar. by the way; Derek Magyar played Commander Kelby, the
Enterprise's new chief engineer.
why am i not surprised, that a white critic when one way wit him whereas the black critic whom's review i posted here for boy-culture, went the other way..hmmmmph..go figure.
well, enough about some actors, i'm not really down with in either case..i understand though that you can get clothes from an online dealer that where the same found on Noah's Ark..Just Us Boys..
i'd rather be looking at hard bodied, black thug like brothers..now don't get me wrong, i don't want the 'head' space of your average thug, just the look; like my main boi, (see previous post..) he's got a rough quality about him but he is definitly a polite and respectful person. Why we have to make the association between Thug and Gorilla..i'm not too down with..esp., since that is how white folks have view'd our sexuality all along..now, we use it to make money from a niche group of black (and other race) fags..go figure..some'ting like that word Nigg'a..speaking of real,
Check out Keeping it real TV ; or his blog spot.., you will find some good news and information on this brothers site. 
for example, "Some of the key factors highlighted are that black men are more than twice as likely to be unemployed as white males; nearly seven times more likely to be incarcerated, and only make 75 percent as much as white males per year." which comes from a report
from the National Urban League (more)
What You Need To Know About Phyre=(fire)
America’s fascinating history is rich with heroes and heroines that have built the foundation of her democracy and her freedom. As a result of the contributions of these sheroes and heroes, we are a better, much fuller and dynamic country. While American history brilliantly documents the contributions, as well as the perspective, of European males succeeding in the “new-frontier” or struggling in the Great Depression, the history nearly omits the existence of African-Americans who too were part of the foundation. When African-Americans have documented our history, we are limitedly successful because much of our history has been erased, denied, or forgotten. During February, while the nation dedicates time to remembering and honoring our African-American past; a coalition of community partners, PHYRE, based in Atlanta, Georgia, is honoring African-American history by dedicating the week of February 18, 2007 - February 24, 2007 to celebrating and remembering lesbian, gay, and bisexual African-American women and men who too have shaped the American mosaic through their contributions in politics, social justice, film, art, music dance, religion, and literature.
by the way, July 19-22, 2007, is the gay black latino miami beach bruthaz's party.. Miami Beach Bruthaz is an annual retreat held on South Beach for gay men and women that promotes unity and camaraderie. For four days, attendees from across the country gather to socialize, network, empower each other and learn about issues facing the gay community. Topics to be discussed this year include:
- The Gay Marriage Agenda
- Gays in the Military - One Man's Struggle and Lawsuit Against the Federal Government
- The Truth About Gay Relationships
- Latino Gay Men in America - A Journey of Assimilation
- The 2008 Presidential Election and the Gay Vote
- Rebuilding Your Credit
The event also includes networking socials such as a poolside reception, buffet luncheons, a jazz and poetry slam, a card-playing tournament, a talent show and model search and a VIP penthouse party. Miami Beach Bruthaz welcomes the participation of all, regardless of age, creed, gender, gender identification (including gay, lesbian, bisexual or transgender) , HIV Status, national origin, physical, mental or development ability, religion or sexual orientation.
speaking of bruthaz, check out blood Jared's daily variety blogspot..quote, "So I was asked to start a Blog. So I thought why the fuck, not?Real reason I haven't ages ago, I'm just plain lazy.
Oh the deal grind of having to write something smart every other day can be trying on a black man.But we all most start somewhere.
"I Still Love you"!!!, 702 told me on the CD player this morning. I choose not to listen, Love comes dime a dozen, and I ain't buying. Not cause I don’t want to, but the only thing coming out these pockets are lent balls and rent checks. Like Mama used to say, "I just don't have the money, stop asking me". But maybe this love they talk of this “Still Love” is a free love, not the love for another but the Love of self.
As lately I had to learn the skill of affirming my dreams and there for proceeding to accomplish them. As I walked down my Harlem streets this morning, I heard a child rant and rave about how it's not fair! "Why does he get to stay and I have to go"? From an early age one has to realize nothing is fair. As much as that fact may suck it's the reality of the Universe. The key to getting around the undoubted fact that shit ain't always fair is to affirm your own dreams, and goals. If one is on the path of what they want to be doing in life. The "it's not fair" don't play a major part, for the reason that you have an end goal. The truest thing in life is, if you want to do something you can do it, but you just have to truly want to. Affirm it, visualize it, believe it, and it will actualize itself." end quote..
and he's cute..too..him and his partner in crime also have a UTube show, that i think is very funny, and entertaining..too bad they don't have call in comments as they tape..it would add some real time to their discussions..check it out.. by the way, and this is way off color and topic..images of my cock can be found on flickr as part of a group called member's member , yeah funny, so i couldn't resist.. Thing is you have to be a member of flickr and of this group before you would be able to see anybodys cock..right now, i'm the only brother in this particular group...you can check out my art work on flickr at (as i am sure i've said before) idlg@flickr
I don't get Iran..and it's religous fever over homosexualty:
(this is Taylor Siluwe's post from his blog..)
The pic below is so disturbing, I can't even put it into words. But the bottomline is, Muslim and Christian authorities in Iraq are doing nothing to help stop the killings initiated when Iranian cleric Ayatollah Ali al-Sistani issued a Fatwa calling for death for all gays and all lesbians in "the most severe way possible" in October 2005. That fatwa -- or religiously-inspired legal pronouncement -- led to the deployment of anti-gay death squads by the Badr Corps, the military arm of the Supreme Council for the Islamic Revolution in Iraq (SCIRI), the most powerful political Shia group in that nation and the cornerstone of the current Iraqi government. The Badr Corps was integrated into the Iraqi Interior Ministry last fall, and its members now wear police uniforms and are able to operate with full police powers.
on a more positive note: look for "Get By: A Survival Guide for Black Gay Youth" The book review and interview will be in the June/July issue of Out IN Jersey, along with (Taylor Siluwe's) John Amaechi interview.
Excerpt From The Preface
From the very beginning as far back as four years old, I was drawn to men. I knew then that there was an attraction, not sexual of course, but a special type of fond preference for men nonetheless, which later, through pubescence, developed sexually. It would have been ideal to have been able to talk to someone about those feelings, but I was surrounded by an environment of antipathy for the homosexual lifestyle. So as an only child, knowing that my parents would not be exactly fond of having a gay son, I, like many other gay teenagers, tried desperately to suppress my homosexual emotions in order to be considered normal. The teasing and isolation that I suffered from my peers also made me feel compelled to live my life as a heterosexual—all in the name of acceptance. I had also grown up serving the Catholic church as an altar boy, having to stomach scripture stuffed down my throat stating that homosexuality was a sin. Even though I was not engaging in sex, I still knew that I was gay, which ultimately led me to questioning whether or not I was hell-bound and wondering if I was a moral abomination in the eyes of God. Of course, the church told me that I was, so I ended up suffering from some serious psychological issues about my role in life. I knew that I didn't ask or prefer to be a homosexual, that I just was without choice—perhaps born into it. But the church and other messages that were circulating from the mouths of homophobia were conveying to me that no one is born a homosexual; that it is a matter of choice.
well, i guess i will go wit another shout out to tiger tyson..since the boi, makes good latin and black porn..check out his blog..
or i could talk about inspirational..like Michael K. Williams..but that may only be true to the beholder..so go check him out as well..
cause as of now, i've kind'a ran out of links to refer you to..some that i won't take responsiblity for, like,
diesellife.com
Juan Diego, founder of the site has written a book too..
8 Reasons Why you haven't found Mr. Right
If you’re reading this, so I suspect you are interested in finding your Mr. Right. So you’ll need to know which of the following 8 reasons is stopping you finding him. Of course it could be more than just 1 of these reasons.
Whichever apply to you (or even if your reason isn’t identified here), they all have the same effect. If you continue to hold these reasons dear to your heart, you will not find your Mr. Right. But you’ll understand why by the end of this article.
However, if you are prepared to tackle the issue, then you really can find your Mr. Right.
1. You’ve been burnt in the past by relationships and it’s just too painful to go out and look for another
Some dudes keep this reason so well hidden within themselves that they don’t even realize that’s their reason. Maybe it’s years since you split up with this partner, but you felt so hurt, so damaged by the break up that you just can’t bear to put yourself through it again. As a result you aren’t out actively looking for, or getting, dates on a regular basis.
2. Your self esteem is low
“Who would love me? I’m not attractive. No one would want to go out with me.” That’s the kind of things you say to yourself if you don’t have the self esteem you need to go out and get the relationship you genuinely deserve.
There are a whole host of reasons why you may not have the esteem – but the important thing is that the belief that you’re not worthy of a loving, caring partner is a serious block – which you can address.
3. There aren’t any decent men out there
This belief is commonly rooted in the first reason I talked about above; being burnt in the past. But there are other reasons. It could be that your standards are unattainably high – sometimes you set them that high to protect yourself from being hurt again or from being rejected. Yes, it is possible that you genuinely can’t find suitable men, but there are millions out there, it’s rarely solely to do with looking in the wrong places.
4. I just don’t have time
If you rise before the sun and you’re too exhausted when you return from work, it’s understandable that you don’t have time to go out and socialize. But just how important is it for you to find a life long partner? If it really isn’t that important, don’t worry about it, just keep going at your career.
However, if you still have that feeling that you really do want to find him, you must change your routine to free up time to go out looking for and going on dates.
If you haven’t managed to put those changes in place within a month, there’s a bigger, hidden, secondary reason why you’re not making the time for it.
5. You’re concerned there’s something wrong with you
Surely it’s one of our biggest fears that we’re not loveable. If you put yourself out there and nobody wants to be with you, isn’t that what’s being said? So by not putting yourself out there to be rejected, you don’t run the risk of learning that message. In other words, by not taking action to find Mr. Right you can never be said to be un-loveable because you haven’t really tried.
The reality of course is that you are loveable. By the way, you may have spotted that this reason is very closely tied to self esteem again.
6. You don’t like the dating scene
Maybe you don’t like clubs . And what if you don’t like internet dating either? Lots of time wasters, losers and fakes. Dating is a numbers game. If you’re chopping out all the high number options then you’re definitely making it a whole lot more difficult for yourself.
There are alternatives, just as long as you’re prepared to invest more time in ploughing through the numbers. And yes, you will always come across losers, and fakes wherever you go. That’s why it always helps to have a clear picture of who you’re planning on meeting – because when you’ve had another fruitless night of dating, you can always comfort yourself with the clear picture in your mind of your future Mr. Right.
7. You don’t believe you need to actively search for him
It will happen naturally. Won’t it? Well how’s that strategy worked for you so far? If you’ve been waiting to find him ‘naturally’ for the last 10 years, how many more decades do you want to try this as a method?
Searching for him doesn’t mean you’re desperate . It simply means you get a lot more dudes to pick from and you’re much more likely to find someone who’ll be perfect for you.
8. You don’t believe you can significantly affect the likelihood of finding your Mr. Right
“I just haven’t found him yet – it’s just a case of waiting for the right man to come along.”
There’s a statistic published by one of the dating agencies at the moment that it takes 432 introductions to find your partner. Well you’ve already met more than 432 people in your life. There’s something you’re doing or something you believe that is affecting your ability to attract your Mr. Right. If you don’t change it, you won’t find him. Not because he isn’t out there, but because your actions keep him away from you. You may not know what it is that you’re doing, but be reassured that you can change it if you a) work out what it is, and b) decide that you are committed to changing it.
So those are the 8 top reasons. There are more. But they all have one thing in common. They are beliefs that affect your ability to attract the right man. If you really want to find your Mr. Right all you need to do is work out which ones are preventing you finding him and take action to change them.
Michael Myerscough (also look at www.UndercoverBrothaz.com)
deadlee.com
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Userful blog. Thanks!
Posted by: Debikf | September 21, 2007 05:15 AM