iDLg v.6

pornography involving corporate uniforms and business suits,

1.  the end of gay gulture? by Andrew Sullivan
2. A grand Illusion
3. Dreadnought
4. setting him straight

"when he moves i watch him from behind he turns and laughter flickers in his eyes intent and direct when he speaks, i watch his lips and when he drives i love to watch his hand white and smooth almost feminine, almost american, i have to watch him.

so un related..; i want my work to restore? the beauty of the black male form to classical art; i question the word choice restore cause i don't think that beauty has ever been lost, so much as diminished, disregarded, denied, deleted, and demeaned. i think i am also talking about males of color as much as i am about black men, since my work also approaches latin, asian, and middle eastern men as subject matter; like Nathum Zenil (one of rafael's favorites) i have always felt marginalized..and my art is a communication between the members of society and myself, as a definant expression or reconigition, and determined sense of place and acceptance.

but again, i'm distracted from my original desire..to rant..just when i look at rafael, i am suddenly so calm and at peace..in any case, i was going to talk about some woman lawyer's rant about the walking smoking....maybe i don't really care what she thinks..now that i think about it..i started a poem/song

"some one started grief'n bout walking smokers giving grief for 10 feet of safety or loss of health....when really the grief is right..cause I'm sure to want you 10 feet from my ill health...stay the fuck off me cause i'm smoking and I want this cloud of toxin around me 24 7, especially if it keep you 10 feet from my soul..or it it put me closer to the lord that's my life so walk some other way bitch."

not very clever i know..but that was what rolled off my head..i just cann't get with the anti smoking zealouts..way too much grief..makes me wanna smoke more..of course right now, i wonder why i'm attracted to guys that aren't attracted to me..more so because of race than anything..stupid..i know..for me to even think about it..