I'm alone in the world, short of the few visitors that manage to find their way into my world; and lately i do wonder what is the point, of my existence. Average type of guy, way to preoccupied with porn and generaly obcessed with body image__or what others think of me. At one time my art served as my base inspiration -- existing as it does in so little of a critical feedback, I'm not sure I can call it art any more but more like a past time.
Oakland california, east side for those into the geographical distinctions of an area; I have found that for most black persons this is an important distinction--uptown or downtown. I have never really cared since in most cases my life has been spent being the new kid in town. I'm not really new to Oakland since I've lived here before on at least two other occassions--that now seem like seperate life times. This time around I moved in with a woman 'associate' of mine whom has since left me living in this flat alone--not that I mind; I use to think that I needed to live alone to create but lately I've come to realize I could stand to live with my
muse even if it creates chaos in my everyday life.
There are many talented persons that touch our lives in the day to day and i'm proably gonna attempt to give all of them big shout out wit this new year, new blog; now I've tried to establish such a realtion with my
blakBuck but may have gotten way too side tracked with my more personal 'issues', of which i seem to have many. Unlike the blogs i so admire of which there are many--
ANZIDESIGN being one of my favorites. (Why I am suddenly wondering what happend to
BFP is way off track..esp., since they really don't exist anymore, I think you can catch some archived video at
catch's place which is proably not even owned by black
fags.)
I digress; let me continue to talk about the blogs i admire. I admire persons whom write, or at least are consistent about their writing; some'ting i would like to be more like this year--of course u do need a subject matter worthy of such, which may be the heart of some of my failings--I don't really have any'ting that interesting to say and to be critical requires way too much work. My aim this year is to be simple and straight forward.
Gary has the right idea of which he calls it a 'virtual sandbox' and I like that idea..though this will be more like virtual quicksand. Which reminds me,
Chris of Lemon-Red is definitly a great blog writer. I spend a great deal of my free time reading his reviews and opinions. Music is the heart and soul of
iDLg and between my attempts at painting i'm either listening to, reviewing or writing about or creating music.
Of course I have no training in music and for the most part I am proably tone deaf and lack any sense of beat or time (who says poets can dance)
but i have had a love affair with music and sound for the larger part of my little life. Hopefully this year, I will write some revews that are worthy of peer review. I want the world to know I'm listening more importantly i want the artist to know i'm listening; once i shot off a comment to a local 'famous' musician,
Lesser and to my actual amazement he took the time to write me back. You have understand I think of this guy as GOD and had no idea that he would even care what I thought of his greatness.
Wayne I want to be like you too--which is a shame since I am a grown man who should know by now who and what i am to my world..instead of yet still seeking out some sort of role to live 'up' . There is so much to admired in people who write and if the internet has opened any door for me it is the door to people who love to write. The ting about internet writing is that on the surface it seems like a simple ting to do
yet it requires real effort and for the most part skill. I think we sometime fail to appreciate how the internet has actually returned societies to the art and skill of writing as well as reading.
musical experiences
change the race and it's a window into my world..
now i picked up Pendulum in 2003, and have been rock'n it since, Tender Buttons is actually new to me, so i'll have to hunt for it..
Jamie Lidell is someone I've been watching but have never heard..I've seen images of him everywhere and some performance stuff of his via the internet..i'd like to hear this guy as much as EDAN..whom Prefuse73 recommends...man i've been on a whole different tip..which i'll go into later..
so yeah, i would like to hear this one as well..
records cost money and the mo records the mo costly..which many of us poor DJs can not afford..least this poor as DJ, right now i need new needles real bad..sooner than new records..dig.? 
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Speaking of taste, I recently tried 
I know you don't expect me to explain that equation; suffice to say, it happens with frequency via vibrations and i bet you didn't think i would have know; complex sounds are a combination of sincurves. this is knowledge i have gained on television; periodic waves, square, sawtooth, even loops are periodic waves..
"Exercise 3"
Modest Mouse: 
"Intensive care"
Radio head : 
Bent: 
New Order: 
"Dreams never end"
Tricky: