iDLg v.6
last will and testament of an aging black american male (should i say it..homo) lost in the wasteland without the aid and assistance of what (who) should have been his family.. 
musical experiences
October 30, 2008
October 28, 2008
Defining Self
What defines me?
a queer life; drugs, sex and isolation; race, money and social standing? lately i taken to listening to homo hop radio, simply for the inspiration of voices like my own.
Why i am only as personally constructive as i am at work vs home is another condition? I think i realize that i spend most of my days in and at a work enviorment thus i attempt to maximize that time creatively since i realize that my home time is mainly eat, cum and sleep..more or less in that order.
I'm not sure if this is a good life since i'm too busy essentialy running behind the creditors and other consumeristic life. I mean I do need things, like shoes, socks, records, books, art supplies, art itself..etc. etc.,
Is need a good word..perhaps i should say i want things, as is i am also working on more and more non physiclal consumption, by that, I think I am talking about the consumption of things that don't leave a physicla object in your pocession, like travel.
I've noticed that I only construst this blog at work though which was my original thought regarding the limits of my time.
I was tripping the other day, on another artist site,
a black artist by the name of belasco; we sort of met and knew each other for a minute, however, the gentleman is way famous for his art work unlike myself. And deserving? his fame is for him since his work is really incrediable and queer. I admire the pencil work he does of black guys a bit more than his character sketches; but there is no doubt his cartoons are erotic. I myself have actually jacked off to them on more than one occassion.
anyway, i pulled some links from his site that i should share as I found them to be really informative links..in an art to artist sence.
.....he says it is the site of a free boy from africa; his drawings are great, I only hoped to draw as many and as well the beauty of black men; the thing i liked most is the variedness of his models and styles, excellent work and a true inspiration for me; in fact, i went back into another site and pulled a bunch of pictures of black guys just to throw more blacks into my flickr.com site.
This effort didn't go too far since the site i used had a number of guys whom all seemed to be the same kind of guy; the 6 pack abs, the big arms, and tightly groomed hair; some after awhile didn't even look black if not for there skin color, since they all had the fairly straight nose, full mouths but not that large, and sharp chins. I was surprised to see so many black guys who all looked so similar.
I don't know why I don't draw more african male features; I suppose I'm way too snowed out in my life, and since being in san francisco these many years, I become way too polycultured in what i look at with regards to men; I mean, I do draw a awfull lot of asian, mexican, and or latin american men as well as dark europeans;
I suppose if i lived in africa, then blacknuss would be a bit more my primary focus? Or if I had been raised in predomanately black communities; but that is not the case for me; a product of amerika integration efforts since the 50's; seems i've always been around them other folks.
oh yeah, links...
speaking of non black specific art..but yes, still male..
I like the collection. It also inspired me with regards to my lines in pencil;
